MikeyT
30-08-05, 19:48
It was the last available day, before returning to school, that would could take our children out for the day as a family today.
We decided to take them to The Deep in Hull
This is where I really struggle - partner said it would be fine if I didn't go - which would have been the easier option.
But I know if I am ever to break this, which has been around for ten years, I need to do this as I have kept going around in circles of avoidance.
I drove, but felt very anxious all the way - several time contemplated in turning round and coming home.
Rescue Remedy and Kalms on tap - took a good hour after arriving before things calmed down to a more manageable level.
Just cannot understand why my anxiety feeds on these sorts of situations, if I had been by myself - I know the anxiety would be much much less, but this does not help my family life.
My partner is very understanding, but I realise for her that it is upsetting, that she sees me battling to do everyday things that should be fun.
We arrived back home and I now feel shattered - early night in order.
Oh - I would recommend a visit to The Deep.
Mick
We decided to take them to The Deep in Hull
This is where I really struggle - partner said it would be fine if I didn't go - which would have been the easier option.
But I know if I am ever to break this, which has been around for ten years, I need to do this as I have kept going around in circles of avoidance.
I drove, but felt very anxious all the way - several time contemplated in turning round and coming home.
Rescue Remedy and Kalms on tap - took a good hour after arriving before things calmed down to a more manageable level.
Just cannot understand why my anxiety feeds on these sorts of situations, if I had been by myself - I know the anxiety would be much much less, but this does not help my family life.
My partner is very understanding, but I realise for her that it is upsetting, that she sees me battling to do everyday things that should be fun.
We arrived back home and I now feel shattered - early night in order.
Oh - I would recommend a visit to The Deep.
Mick