Elle-Kay
02-09-05, 18:52
...this one has been pretty abismal :( Some of you may remember that I was booked to go on holiday today, and seeing as I'm posting here, you can probably guess that I didn't go! The reason for this is that my boyfriend and I, who have been arguing on and off for a month or so without knowing why, broke up late last night. I had been trying to get ready for the holiday, and intermittently chatting to him online for most of the day, and he had barely said 5 words to me. He had been umm'ing and err'ing about going on the holiday a couple of weeks ago, after an argument (and I'm meant to be the one with anxiety!) but had said he would go, as we are always better when together, then with his behaviour yesterday I just knew he was dragging his feet again. I asked him several times if he still wanted to go, and got no answer, and after trying to talk to him about it without any useful response for several hours, I finally gave up and had to say we wouldn't go - I just couldn't face spending a week with someone who couldn't even say 5 words to me in a whole day! :(
We'd been together for nearly 4 years, and one of the things that disappointed me most - apart from splitting up and not going on holiday, of course - was that he has known about my anxiety all that time, knew I was anxious about the journey, and acted in such a way as to make things worse for me instead of either putting his doubts aside, or discussing them with me so that we could work through it together [V]
--- Obstacles are what you see when you take your eyes off the goal.
We'd been together for nearly 4 years, and one of the things that disappointed me most - apart from splitting up and not going on holiday, of course - was that he has known about my anxiety all that time, knew I was anxious about the journey, and acted in such a way as to make things worse for me instead of either putting his doubts aside, or discussing them with me so that we could work through it together [V]
--- Obstacles are what you see when you take your eyes off the goal.