Hears The Water
05-01-04, 22:00
Hi y'all!
I found this site by doing a google search. I am hoping to find a place where I can talk to others that understand the way I think. I have had panic attacks, phobias for the last ten years, and general anxiety for almost all of my 35 years. I thought I would start out by telling a bit about myself. I live in MO in the USA, I am a homeschooling stay at home mom. I come from an abusive past and I think that this realy affects how I think today. (not wanting sympathy, just mentioning the things that have shaped who I am today). I am a Christian, but feel like my faith is weak sometimes. I have been married to my dh John for the last 11 years, and I have three children. Like I said, I homeschool, so I do have a pretty high stress life.
I have been to several therapists over the years and realy have not tried meds. Kinda hard to do when one of my phobias is medication. :D I am an herbalist for most things, and tend to try to stay as natural as I can with healing. I am pretty much just sick and tired of being this way, and I just wish it would all go away, but I know that it is not that easy. Right now we are straped financially so I am not seing any therapist, but I am thinking like it is time to try again. The last therapist I went to tried to tell me that I had Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and that I needed both bio-feedback and neuro-feedback. He also told me as I was leaving his office (I was kinda mad!!) that he did not want me to have a disassociative episode and wreck my car. Needless to say I have not been back to him. I still get very angry when I think of him. I am looking for a councelor that does CBT since I think that is where I will get the best help. Anyway, I don't want to go on and on. Just saying HI! I hope that I fit in here. Most of my other online as well as real life friends just do not understand how I think.
God bless you and yours
Hears The Water
I found this site by doing a google search. I am hoping to find a place where I can talk to others that understand the way I think. I have had panic attacks, phobias for the last ten years, and general anxiety for almost all of my 35 years. I thought I would start out by telling a bit about myself. I live in MO in the USA, I am a homeschooling stay at home mom. I come from an abusive past and I think that this realy affects how I think today. (not wanting sympathy, just mentioning the things that have shaped who I am today). I am a Christian, but feel like my faith is weak sometimes. I have been married to my dh John for the last 11 years, and I have three children. Like I said, I homeschool, so I do have a pretty high stress life.
I have been to several therapists over the years and realy have not tried meds. Kinda hard to do when one of my phobias is medication. :D I am an herbalist for most things, and tend to try to stay as natural as I can with healing. I am pretty much just sick and tired of being this way, and I just wish it would all go away, but I know that it is not that easy. Right now we are straped financially so I am not seing any therapist, but I am thinking like it is time to try again. The last therapist I went to tried to tell me that I had Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and that I needed both bio-feedback and neuro-feedback. He also told me as I was leaving his office (I was kinda mad!!) that he did not want me to have a disassociative episode and wreck my car. Needless to say I have not been back to him. I still get very angry when I think of him. I am looking for a councelor that does CBT since I think that is where I will get the best help. Anyway, I don't want to go on and on. Just saying HI! I hope that I fit in here. Most of my other online as well as real life friends just do not understand how I think.
God bless you and yours
Hears The Water