Buby
03-09-05, 17:37
Hey all,
Long Time no see, Sorry i havent been for a while. Jus been busy i guess.
In the last 2 or 3 months, i keep having these really short panic attacks. Before this, i hadnt panicked for quite a while. jus usually anxious some of the time. But although im familiar with panicking, i got out the habit and forgot wha it was like. But in the last 2 or 3 weeks, I have panics tht last about 4minutes. maybe not even that. It keeps me anxious after though. But as a result. im losing weight. although i havent lost masses iv lost nearly a stone! im so scared of being underweight. but every time i eat i freak out, and think im guna b sick if i eat (but this is only in the evening) although i eat alot during the day. and its all crap food! like chocolate n crisps, sandwiches, although i do eat my share of fruit n vegies.
Going out for a drive used to calm me down when i was nervous or panicky, and it does settle me,,,until i get in and go to bed! Iv got so scared that, i keep my door open, keep my light and my tv on. write in my diary, txt my boyfriend at any time of the night. jus to calm me down! and i jus cnt do it. and i cnt seem to find a way of getting over it. I have done before, but i dnt kno how and i jus wish i could b like i was a few months ago or even 'normal'.
I missed out on so much education this yr, as well as the 2 yrs before and now in 3days im goin to b yr11 and doing my GCSE's i really need to work so hard at gettin myself bk to school if nothing else. I keep wondering if im worried about going bk to school and if thats the reason im starting to get panciky again. because i do have a fear of school, I keep sayin to myself that its my last yr and tht im not even there for as long as every other yr. but talking myself to calm doesnt seem to work for me anymore.
Im currently having treatment by a woman called Pippa Bondy. Which she used the 'Alexander Technique' On me. but it only seems to b working a little bit. The Alexander Technique is a way to put your body in a relaxed position. Its hard to explain but im sure theres info on google or something.
Im sorry to bore u all with whats been going on, its jus im feeling so bad and im slowly getting depressed and want to cry all the time. especially at nyt or when im on my own.
Thanks for reading Rachel x
Long Time no see, Sorry i havent been for a while. Jus been busy i guess.
In the last 2 or 3 months, i keep having these really short panic attacks. Before this, i hadnt panicked for quite a while. jus usually anxious some of the time. But although im familiar with panicking, i got out the habit and forgot wha it was like. But in the last 2 or 3 weeks, I have panics tht last about 4minutes. maybe not even that. It keeps me anxious after though. But as a result. im losing weight. although i havent lost masses iv lost nearly a stone! im so scared of being underweight. but every time i eat i freak out, and think im guna b sick if i eat (but this is only in the evening) although i eat alot during the day. and its all crap food! like chocolate n crisps, sandwiches, although i do eat my share of fruit n vegies.
Going out for a drive used to calm me down when i was nervous or panicky, and it does settle me,,,until i get in and go to bed! Iv got so scared that, i keep my door open, keep my light and my tv on. write in my diary, txt my boyfriend at any time of the night. jus to calm me down! and i jus cnt do it. and i cnt seem to find a way of getting over it. I have done before, but i dnt kno how and i jus wish i could b like i was a few months ago or even 'normal'.
I missed out on so much education this yr, as well as the 2 yrs before and now in 3days im goin to b yr11 and doing my GCSE's i really need to work so hard at gettin myself bk to school if nothing else. I keep wondering if im worried about going bk to school and if thats the reason im starting to get panciky again. because i do have a fear of school, I keep sayin to myself that its my last yr and tht im not even there for as long as every other yr. but talking myself to calm doesnt seem to work for me anymore.
Im currently having treatment by a woman called Pippa Bondy. Which she used the 'Alexander Technique' On me. but it only seems to b working a little bit. The Alexander Technique is a way to put your body in a relaxed position. Its hard to explain but im sure theres info on google or something.
Im sorry to bore u all with whats been going on, its jus im feeling so bad and im slowly getting depressed and want to cry all the time. especially at nyt or when im on my own.
Thanks for reading Rachel x