GirlAfraid23
12-06-09, 12:52
I have a boyfriend now, I have moved back home from university and I feel alot happier than I did before, however as mentioned in the title, things are still rocky at times.
I havent had a health anxiety episode in a while, however I have been having issues with my self esteem. I have a lovely boyfriend but I fail to understand why he likes me and why he would want to be with me.
I suffer from acne, not severe but moderate and its beginning to get me down, I constantley wear makeup to cover it up and never thought about anyone else mentioning it. However the other day on msn, a "friend" basically told me that my acne looked worse when I covered it up and that it must be hard having a group of friends as I do (they are all very pretty) and that because I'm less good looking than all of them, I must find it hard. This made me really quite upset. My self confidence levels have plummeted and I really dont know what to do next.
I'm going on holiday with these friends soon and I know I wont be able to wear makeup all the time plus my body isnt in great shape either (well i dont think it is) I'm a size 12 (UK) however it isnt toned enough in my opinion...I get scared of dieting because I took it too far a few years ago and used to write down everything I ate and became obsessed. I wouldnt eat all day at school and then one day I got up in the classroom and I passed out, almost falling down the stairs.
I just want to be completley happy, I dont want my new boyfriend to think that I am insecure and needy. As this is the way alot of my other relationships have gone :weep:
I havent had a health anxiety episode in a while, however I have been having issues with my self esteem. I have a lovely boyfriend but I fail to understand why he likes me and why he would want to be with me.
I suffer from acne, not severe but moderate and its beginning to get me down, I constantley wear makeup to cover it up and never thought about anyone else mentioning it. However the other day on msn, a "friend" basically told me that my acne looked worse when I covered it up and that it must be hard having a group of friends as I do (they are all very pretty) and that because I'm less good looking than all of them, I must find it hard. This made me really quite upset. My self confidence levels have plummeted and I really dont know what to do next.
I'm going on holiday with these friends soon and I know I wont be able to wear makeup all the time plus my body isnt in great shape either (well i dont think it is) I'm a size 12 (UK) however it isnt toned enough in my opinion...I get scared of dieting because I took it too far a few years ago and used to write down everything I ate and became obsessed. I wouldnt eat all day at school and then one day I got up in the classroom and I passed out, almost falling down the stairs.
I just want to be completley happy, I dont want my new boyfriend to think that I am insecure and needy. As this is the way alot of my other relationships have gone :weep: