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22-06-09, 21:10
Hello everybody,
So I know a bit about forum etiquette, and I realize that I'm breaking the "search previous posts first" rule a little bit. I've gone through some of the other posts, but probably not as many as I should. Hopefully many of you can understand that the panic leads to a "my God, I need answers now" sort of feeling. I'll make sure to continue reading previous posts.:)
Anyhow, I've been on cymbalta/effexor (at different times) over the course of the past 10 or so years, and I made the decision that I wanted to be free of it. I felt great for the first month, and then started getting this nagging feeling that "there's just not something right about the world." This progressed into full-blown panic attacks. Mostly, my greatest fear is that I have a brain tumor (going to have that checked out tomorrow).
I get these weird feelings in my head, like there's pressure building. It feels like my head is about to explode, but not in a painful way. Perhaps another way of describing it would be to say that it feels like a ten pound weight is hanging from the rear of my brain.
The other scary symptom is recurring episodes of derealization. It feels like nothing is real, and that the edges of reality are being peeled back. I feel like, at any minute, my conciousness could be ripped from me. It also feels as though I'm about to lose my vision. Like for a split second, it's like I drop out of conciousness and then come back. Sort of like a "brain zap" for those of you familiar with antidepressant withdrawal. My vision lacks "emotional color" and it seems like there is way too much to take in; in the sense that light is too bright and there's so much in my field of vision that my brain can't possibly comprehend it all.
The worst part is that it never seems to go away. It's worst during a full out panic attack, but for the past week, if I'm not panicking, all this stuff is on the back of my mind, at a low level. I'm to the point where I feel hopeless about ever getting better.
Has anybody experienced similar combos of symptoms? Does anybody else fear having a tumor? Should I even be worried about a tumor as a healthy and fit 22 year old?
Thanks for any insight, and sorry for the long post. Any answers would be a beacon in the darkness.
So I know a bit about forum etiquette, and I realize that I'm breaking the "search previous posts first" rule a little bit. I've gone through some of the other posts, but probably not as many as I should. Hopefully many of you can understand that the panic leads to a "my God, I need answers now" sort of feeling. I'll make sure to continue reading previous posts.:)
Anyhow, I've been on cymbalta/effexor (at different times) over the course of the past 10 or so years, and I made the decision that I wanted to be free of it. I felt great for the first month, and then started getting this nagging feeling that "there's just not something right about the world." This progressed into full-blown panic attacks. Mostly, my greatest fear is that I have a brain tumor (going to have that checked out tomorrow).
I get these weird feelings in my head, like there's pressure building. It feels like my head is about to explode, but not in a painful way. Perhaps another way of describing it would be to say that it feels like a ten pound weight is hanging from the rear of my brain.
The other scary symptom is recurring episodes of derealization. It feels like nothing is real, and that the edges of reality are being peeled back. I feel like, at any minute, my conciousness could be ripped from me. It also feels as though I'm about to lose my vision. Like for a split second, it's like I drop out of conciousness and then come back. Sort of like a "brain zap" for those of you familiar with antidepressant withdrawal. My vision lacks "emotional color" and it seems like there is way too much to take in; in the sense that light is too bright and there's so much in my field of vision that my brain can't possibly comprehend it all.
The worst part is that it never seems to go away. It's worst during a full out panic attack, but for the past week, if I'm not panicking, all this stuff is on the back of my mind, at a low level. I'm to the point where I feel hopeless about ever getting better.
Has anybody experienced similar combos of symptoms? Does anybody else fear having a tumor? Should I even be worried about a tumor as a healthy and fit 22 year old?
Thanks for any insight, and sorry for the long post. Any answers would be a beacon in the darkness.