Mich1111
26-06-09, 12:22
Hi
I'm 32 and have suffered with anxiety and depression since I was at school.
I was bullied when i was younger and as a result have always suffered low self esteem and constantly worry what people think of me.
For probably the best part of 8 years my symptoms were controlled by venlafaxine. Just under 2 years ago I was weaned off it (the withdrawal effects were horrific) as my husband and I wanted to start a family. I had ups and downs but on a whole life was great and I thought I was coping.
This was up until 2 weeks ago, on a couple of occasions when I was out I suffered full blown panic attacks to the point I was sweating one minute then shivering through being cold the next and my legs were like jelly. I thought I was dying.
I was determined to beat it without medication but its got to the stage where I cant drive, work or go out without feeling so ill. My head feels constantly fuzzy and I'm terrified somethings going to happen to my family and I feel I can not cope with anything. I just want to sleep all the time as its the only time i dont feel none of this.
I've had blood tests and the doctor has said I am fine just suffering from anxiety again. I thought this would calm me down but it hasnt.
I have now been subscribed propranolol but after having read the leaflet and side effects am too scared to take it. Also I have read about the effects of coming off them and dont want to go through what I did with the venlafaxine.
Sorry for going on - I guess I'm just looking for reassurance/speak to people who have gone through or are going through a similar thing. Its so hard for non sufferers to understand.
I'm 32 and have suffered with anxiety and depression since I was at school.
I was bullied when i was younger and as a result have always suffered low self esteem and constantly worry what people think of me.
For probably the best part of 8 years my symptoms were controlled by venlafaxine. Just under 2 years ago I was weaned off it (the withdrawal effects were horrific) as my husband and I wanted to start a family. I had ups and downs but on a whole life was great and I thought I was coping.
This was up until 2 weeks ago, on a couple of occasions when I was out I suffered full blown panic attacks to the point I was sweating one minute then shivering through being cold the next and my legs were like jelly. I thought I was dying.
I was determined to beat it without medication but its got to the stage where I cant drive, work or go out without feeling so ill. My head feels constantly fuzzy and I'm terrified somethings going to happen to my family and I feel I can not cope with anything. I just want to sleep all the time as its the only time i dont feel none of this.
I've had blood tests and the doctor has said I am fine just suffering from anxiety again. I thought this would calm me down but it hasnt.
I have now been subscribed propranolol but after having read the leaflet and side effects am too scared to take it. Also I have read about the effects of coming off them and dont want to go through what I did with the venlafaxine.
Sorry for going on - I guess I'm just looking for reassurance/speak to people who have gone through or are going through a similar thing. Its so hard for non sufferers to understand.