MikeyT
08-09-05, 12:09
Felt very anxious this morning - things have calmed down now.
As early posts my anxiety over the last two weeks has been quite high.
This is car related, but not really, more to do with my self-esteme.
I bought a new car last week and now wish I hadn't - quite a large amount of money and I took a gamble thinking I could sell my existing car, I need the money from this sale and in over a month I have had not one call.
I feel I have added Millstones around my neck instead of taking them off - should really concentrate on getting well and feeling happy with what I already have, instead of chasing what I think may me happy
And obviously the way I felt this morning is far from it. - I need to get away from this fixation that material things will make me happy.
In all honesty - I was foolish to take out the loan (and I have not even said this to my partner) and at this time with the anxiety at the fore, was probably not a good idea to go out spending.
So I now have two cars - seriously thinking of trying to sell the new one pay off existing debts and save the rest as a rainy day fund and concentrate on being well.
Sorry for the rant - just need to vent.
Mick
As early posts my anxiety over the last two weeks has been quite high.
This is car related, but not really, more to do with my self-esteme.
I bought a new car last week and now wish I hadn't - quite a large amount of money and I took a gamble thinking I could sell my existing car, I need the money from this sale and in over a month I have had not one call.
I feel I have added Millstones around my neck instead of taking them off - should really concentrate on getting well and feeling happy with what I already have, instead of chasing what I think may me happy
And obviously the way I felt this morning is far from it. - I need to get away from this fixation that material things will make me happy.
In all honesty - I was foolish to take out the loan (and I have not even said this to my partner) and at this time with the anxiety at the fore, was probably not a good idea to go out spending.
So I now have two cars - seriously thinking of trying to sell the new one pay off existing debts and save the rest as a rainy day fund and concentrate on being well.
Sorry for the rant - just need to vent.
Mick