skyblue
29-06-09, 21:05
:flowers: hi
feel like im on a roller coster,one week sort of ok managing to compleate a full weeks work,then wake up and cant face it,just imagine myself there and my brain goes into overdrive,panicing about "what ifs" then the battle starts off in the car only to find myself back home in ten minuites.
then set off again,make it but spend the rest of the day pushing myself to get through waiting to go home. people say you are doing the right thing,cant see it myself :huh: went away last weekend with hubby,spent the night pacing the floor and came home the next day.
feel like im in a boundry and if i come across im vunerable,and i cant control it,like a bumper car hitting the edge and cant go any further:wacko:
even going in resturant,i cant eat anything i dont no,if there is nothing i start to panic,as i cant make everyone leave (has been known ha ha...)
just feel like there is no enjoyment, or relaxing, feel trapped
then i get really low and now dont want to do anything,as i cant battle any longer.
i have a tablet phobia so meds is out the window,then i feel that is this all real,or is it just me and there is no problem.
when i do have good days i could take on the world,and try to cram us much in as possible,but i soon come back down to earth.
not sure what to do, where to go,or just get on with it:yesyes: lol
i dont feel im making much sense,sorry for the long post but its good
to talk, as i find it hard to say this to any one. this has been going on for a long while.
thanks for reading
love skyxx
worring about work tmw already lol.......
feel like im on a roller coster,one week sort of ok managing to compleate a full weeks work,then wake up and cant face it,just imagine myself there and my brain goes into overdrive,panicing about "what ifs" then the battle starts off in the car only to find myself back home in ten minuites.
then set off again,make it but spend the rest of the day pushing myself to get through waiting to go home. people say you are doing the right thing,cant see it myself :huh: went away last weekend with hubby,spent the night pacing the floor and came home the next day.
feel like im in a boundry and if i come across im vunerable,and i cant control it,like a bumper car hitting the edge and cant go any further:wacko:
even going in resturant,i cant eat anything i dont no,if there is nothing i start to panic,as i cant make everyone leave (has been known ha ha...)
just feel like there is no enjoyment, or relaxing, feel trapped
then i get really low and now dont want to do anything,as i cant battle any longer.
i have a tablet phobia so meds is out the window,then i feel that is this all real,or is it just me and there is no problem.
when i do have good days i could take on the world,and try to cram us much in as possible,but i soon come back down to earth.
not sure what to do, where to go,or just get on with it:yesyes: lol
i dont feel im making much sense,sorry for the long post but its good
to talk, as i find it hard to say this to any one. this has been going on for a long while.
thanks for reading
love skyxx
worring about work tmw already lol.......