agingwuss
03-07-09, 08:51
First of all I hope you folks will excuse this incoherent rant.
Since March 2008 I have had - cervical cancer, bladder cancer, colon cancer, etc etc. You name it - my HA has come up with it.
However, I discovered this site which saved my life and with your help & a book recommended here [It's Not All In Your Mind] I thought I'd kicked it at last. Was I pleased with myself! I thought it was all over .........
No No that was too easy.
For the last week I've been as bad as ever. I've got a slightly blocked left nostril. In fact, I think it's been like that on and off for months but I was too pre-occupied with having colon cancer to notice it! LOL. It doesn't hurt [except that very slight pressure/minimal pain which comes from thinking endlessly about a part of your body - which I think you folks may be familiar with!] I just blew my nose about a week ago & there was a little bit of blood on my hanky - and my HA went back into overdrive. I haven't dared to look into my hanky again.
And I began to Google [worst idea in the world] but luckily I found first off how rare sinus/nose cancer is & evern rarer among us ladies! But Mr HA doesn't take that into consideration much.
I know in my heart I'm being unbelievably daft - but I can't seeem to get a hold on it. Any one who's had anything like this - especially on one side - I would be eternally grateful to! I feel such a prat!!:weep:
I work from home so have nobody to talk to all day - the worst possible senario for those of us with the great HA. I just sit here and think about myself - horrible! And it makes me so so selfish - my dear partner had rather bad toothache a couple of days ago & I found myself thinking "please shut about about your tooth - I want to think about ME!" How rotten is that!? I managed [I hope] to show caring & support and I haven't mentioned my nose to him as he's got enought to worry about but I feel so horrible for being so detestably self-centred!
Since March 2008 I have had - cervical cancer, bladder cancer, colon cancer, etc etc. You name it - my HA has come up with it.
However, I discovered this site which saved my life and with your help & a book recommended here [It's Not All In Your Mind] I thought I'd kicked it at last. Was I pleased with myself! I thought it was all over .........
No No that was too easy.
For the last week I've been as bad as ever. I've got a slightly blocked left nostril. In fact, I think it's been like that on and off for months but I was too pre-occupied with having colon cancer to notice it! LOL. It doesn't hurt [except that very slight pressure/minimal pain which comes from thinking endlessly about a part of your body - which I think you folks may be familiar with!] I just blew my nose about a week ago & there was a little bit of blood on my hanky - and my HA went back into overdrive. I haven't dared to look into my hanky again.
And I began to Google [worst idea in the world] but luckily I found first off how rare sinus/nose cancer is & evern rarer among us ladies! But Mr HA doesn't take that into consideration much.
I know in my heart I'm being unbelievably daft - but I can't seeem to get a hold on it. Any one who's had anything like this - especially on one side - I would be eternally grateful to! I feel such a prat!!:weep:
I work from home so have nobody to talk to all day - the worst possible senario for those of us with the great HA. I just sit here and think about myself - horrible! And it makes me so so selfish - my dear partner had rather bad toothache a couple of days ago & I found myself thinking "please shut about about your tooth - I want to think about ME!" How rotten is that!? I managed [I hope] to show caring & support and I haven't mentioned my nose to him as he's got enought to worry about but I feel so horrible for being so detestably self-centred!