Purpose Maker
05-07-09, 22:40
Ok, I've tried to tell GP's or therapists this, when I've tried all I've been told is "its part of anxiety and depression" and I'm not really sure. Personaly I'd put it down to mental problems but it doesnt get in the way of my social life tbh.
Here go's....
I suffer depression and anxiety, quite bad I'd say. Thoughts have clouded and more often than not ruined my judgement, often get into arguments because I've instantly not heard the facts and gone on the "defensive". But on top of that I find when I'm in my own company I tend to say things out loud, for example, I usualy get bad/disturbing thoughts, often things from my past that should easily be buried (nothing sinister, just regrets and self pity) and I suddenly find myself swearing or getting worked up for a few seconds. Then I'm ok, back to normal function. Then it starts again later!
In good company, like my wife and kids or good friends it never happens, only when im left alone for a few minutes or alone for a long period of time. Happens alot at work as I work a machine in a quiet corner of the factory. And if I notice someone looking at me when I do it I just make out im singing along to the radio.
What is this? Has anyone else had this? My brain feels like its working to fast at times and it spills out crap I need not panicabout :(
Here go's....
I suffer depression and anxiety, quite bad I'd say. Thoughts have clouded and more often than not ruined my judgement, often get into arguments because I've instantly not heard the facts and gone on the "defensive". But on top of that I find when I'm in my own company I tend to say things out loud, for example, I usualy get bad/disturbing thoughts, often things from my past that should easily be buried (nothing sinister, just regrets and self pity) and I suddenly find myself swearing or getting worked up for a few seconds. Then I'm ok, back to normal function. Then it starts again later!
In good company, like my wife and kids or good friends it never happens, only when im left alone for a few minutes or alone for a long period of time. Happens alot at work as I work a machine in a quiet corner of the factory. And if I notice someone looking at me when I do it I just make out im singing along to the radio.
What is this? Has anyone else had this? My brain feels like its working to fast at times and it spills out crap I need not panicabout :(