Joanna1414
07-07-09, 15:41
Hi,
I have been suffering from anxiety on and off for a while now. I am 25 and currently only taking vitamins/and herbs to treat it.
It started as health anxiety as a teenager-I was always preoccupied with cancer/MS. I got over that, went to college, had the time of my life, and upon graduating a few years after have been experiencing more anxiety, which progressivly led to panic attacks and a preoccupation with my mental health.
I am at a total loss at this point, I have been to a doctor and a therapist, which just made me more confused. The Doctor told me I had GAD and gave me a prescription for Celexa, which I never took. The therapist offered no good advice, I find the only thing that helps is yoga and running.
Now, I have been on this site, which really reassured me as I have been fearing I am going crazy ever since my first panic attack. I fear every mental illness-schizophrenia-Bipolar, etc. However logically I know I am not experiencing any of those disorders, I can work myself up through so much FEAR that I can think what if? And the next thing you know I feel that way. I have had constant songs stuck in my head, constant depersonalization, and I am always questioning how I feel...I AM JUST SO TIRED OF THIS.
Anyway, the worst symptom for me is Depersonalization, so I searched the forums on it and someone wrote about how some people who have it get Multiple Personality Disorder....I literally felt like I was going to have a panic attack after reading that, because ever since this happened I feel like I don't know who I am anymore, like I am lost in this fear cycle and I can't stop being afraid...if it isn't one thing it's another. Please, is this the case, multiple personality disorder seems scarier than anything....
Did anyone here with Panic/Anxiety experience a feeling of a loss of self? I feel like I am so confused and anxiety ridden that I can't get back to me...this fear is all consuming, I fear going crazy the most. Please, any information would help me.
Also, nobody in my family has any mental illness.
I have been suffering from anxiety on and off for a while now. I am 25 and currently only taking vitamins/and herbs to treat it.
It started as health anxiety as a teenager-I was always preoccupied with cancer/MS. I got over that, went to college, had the time of my life, and upon graduating a few years after have been experiencing more anxiety, which progressivly led to panic attacks and a preoccupation with my mental health.
I am at a total loss at this point, I have been to a doctor and a therapist, which just made me more confused. The Doctor told me I had GAD and gave me a prescription for Celexa, which I never took. The therapist offered no good advice, I find the only thing that helps is yoga and running.
Now, I have been on this site, which really reassured me as I have been fearing I am going crazy ever since my first panic attack. I fear every mental illness-schizophrenia-Bipolar, etc. However logically I know I am not experiencing any of those disorders, I can work myself up through so much FEAR that I can think what if? And the next thing you know I feel that way. I have had constant songs stuck in my head, constant depersonalization, and I am always questioning how I feel...I AM JUST SO TIRED OF THIS.
Anyway, the worst symptom for me is Depersonalization, so I searched the forums on it and someone wrote about how some people who have it get Multiple Personality Disorder....I literally felt like I was going to have a panic attack after reading that, because ever since this happened I feel like I don't know who I am anymore, like I am lost in this fear cycle and I can't stop being afraid...if it isn't one thing it's another. Please, is this the case, multiple personality disorder seems scarier than anything....
Did anyone here with Panic/Anxiety experience a feeling of a loss of self? I feel like I am so confused and anxiety ridden that I can't get back to me...this fear is all consuming, I fear going crazy the most. Please, any information would help me.
Also, nobody in my family has any mental illness.