george08
07-07-09, 19:20
Hi
i have made an appointment at the Dr's on Thursday about my dodgy moles i am in a complete state there is about 6 more against the origional 3 that i am now very concerened about! got my Boyfriend to check them again last night and he said they havent changed! I have googled i know that i shouldnt have but i did and things dont look to good! i have even had a few conversations with my Dr in my head and the outcome isnt promissing! i have to confess that i have now started to try and cut them out but couldnt reach properly! so i just cut my arm instead! the worst thing is i have just found out that my mum is seeing the same doctor straight after me i am sure he is going to tell her that i have melanoma! I know loads of people have moles removed that turn out to be nothing but i just have a gut feeling this is not going to be me! None of my family know how i am and i asked my sister to have a look at the one on my head and she said that i should have it removed! completly freaked out! I know that i am being stupid but i would rather kill myself then have to wait 2 weeks for the resullts i dont know how i am going to tell my family! i havent slept in about 2 weeks (i dont usually sleep well any way) think i am just writing this to vent some of my fustrations! i know anxiety does not stop you from getting cancer or any other illness but some times i wish it would! when i read peoples blogs about skin cancer they were all not really concerned about going to the doctors or the result how can people be like that?
Very Worried and Very sad I just hope i dont bottle out of telling the doctor about my moles! sometimes wish i had some one to confide in and understand me! I have wasted my life worrying only to die of the things i worry about what a freak i am!
Em
i have made an appointment at the Dr's on Thursday about my dodgy moles i am in a complete state there is about 6 more against the origional 3 that i am now very concerened about! got my Boyfriend to check them again last night and he said they havent changed! I have googled i know that i shouldnt have but i did and things dont look to good! i have even had a few conversations with my Dr in my head and the outcome isnt promissing! i have to confess that i have now started to try and cut them out but couldnt reach properly! so i just cut my arm instead! the worst thing is i have just found out that my mum is seeing the same doctor straight after me i am sure he is going to tell her that i have melanoma! I know loads of people have moles removed that turn out to be nothing but i just have a gut feeling this is not going to be me! None of my family know how i am and i asked my sister to have a look at the one on my head and she said that i should have it removed! completly freaked out! I know that i am being stupid but i would rather kill myself then have to wait 2 weeks for the resullts i dont know how i am going to tell my family! i havent slept in about 2 weeks (i dont usually sleep well any way) think i am just writing this to vent some of my fustrations! i know anxiety does not stop you from getting cancer or any other illness but some times i wish it would! when i read peoples blogs about skin cancer they were all not really concerned about going to the doctors or the result how can people be like that?
Very Worried and Very sad I just hope i dont bottle out of telling the doctor about my moles! sometimes wish i had some one to confide in and understand me! I have wasted my life worrying only to die of the things i worry about what a freak i am!
Em