existential crisis
13-09-05, 11:09
hi, im posting this because over the past few weeks i have felt really poorly and despite going to my doctor and him referring me back to my psychiatric nurse, my symptoms dont seem to be getting any better.
Basically over the past few weeks I have been feeling like I am going to either lose my balance or fall over. It started off just happening when I went out of the house and was accompanied by all the classic symptoms of anxiety - heart palpitations, feelings of dread and impending doom, sweating, crying etc etc - but lately its started happening to me when Im in the house. I feel like I am constantly leaning to one side and I have this awful feeling of pressure in my head, my ears feel bunged up and vision seems to be failing me. It seems like when I move my head, my eyes take a while to catch up and this causes me to feel disorientated and confused and this in turn makes me feel like I am going to panic. Its gotten to the point where I am not sure if these symptoms are tied in with my anxiety or whether there is a seperate medical problem. Im very worried and very upset about it as every time I go out (and I have to go out because of picking my son up from school) I dread this feeling of going to lose my balance and fall over. I havent actually ever fallen over but this doesnt seem to assuage my fear. My head feels like it's going to explode and I seem to have convinced myself that I have either gone mad or there is something seriously wrong with my brain which my doctor hasnt picked up on. Has anyone else every had this feeling? I feel the urge to hold on to things and sit down wherever I am when it comes on. I feel very embarassed and very low about it as it is ruining my life. Even when my classic anxiety symptoms arent present, I still get these horrible feelings in my head which nothing seems to relieve. It seems to culminate in me feeling very spaced out, like I have gone into a trance and I cant concetrate on anything but my own thoughts - sometimes I dont even know what these thoughts are! Im so scared that something has given in my brain or that I am seriously ill. Has anyone else ever had these feelings of just feeling like they are going to topple over? Thanks for reading! xxx
*I think, therefore I am.*
Basically over the past few weeks I have been feeling like I am going to either lose my balance or fall over. It started off just happening when I went out of the house and was accompanied by all the classic symptoms of anxiety - heart palpitations, feelings of dread and impending doom, sweating, crying etc etc - but lately its started happening to me when Im in the house. I feel like I am constantly leaning to one side and I have this awful feeling of pressure in my head, my ears feel bunged up and vision seems to be failing me. It seems like when I move my head, my eyes take a while to catch up and this causes me to feel disorientated and confused and this in turn makes me feel like I am going to panic. Its gotten to the point where I am not sure if these symptoms are tied in with my anxiety or whether there is a seperate medical problem. Im very worried and very upset about it as every time I go out (and I have to go out because of picking my son up from school) I dread this feeling of going to lose my balance and fall over. I havent actually ever fallen over but this doesnt seem to assuage my fear. My head feels like it's going to explode and I seem to have convinced myself that I have either gone mad or there is something seriously wrong with my brain which my doctor hasnt picked up on. Has anyone else every had this feeling? I feel the urge to hold on to things and sit down wherever I am when it comes on. I feel very embarassed and very low about it as it is ruining my life. Even when my classic anxiety symptoms arent present, I still get these horrible feelings in my head which nothing seems to relieve. It seems to culminate in me feeling very spaced out, like I have gone into a trance and I cant concetrate on anything but my own thoughts - sometimes I dont even know what these thoughts are! Im so scared that something has given in my brain or that I am seriously ill. Has anyone else ever had these feelings of just feeling like they are going to topple over? Thanks for reading! xxx
*I think, therefore I am.*