L1SA
08-07-09, 11:57
HI
Im sat here :weep:
I have had enough!!... the slighest little thing triggers a flare :weep:
I have had CBT (funded privatly by my dad) which was great and helped me so much but my money ran out so i have not had a session for months.
Everything is creeping back up again and im fed up with anxiety 24/7 and battling it... fed up with self talking, people thinking your nuts not being able to have a social like, always having to prepare to go anywhere.
My life ATM is these 4 walls :mad:
I had my daughters school play last week. That took so much out of me :weep: i was a wreck!!... broke down as i couldnt stand being trapped in a tiny school hall crowded with kids & adults.
It was 33degrees and my daughter put so much pressure on me to be there i had to go. I sat by an open fire exit and spent the whole time self talking instead of watchin my daughters play and went on a panic attack... god knows what the play was about!!! :weep:
Now i have a nasty virus and my daughters comes home with a letter to say swine flu is in her school!... great more anxiety to add :weep:
I so upset & fed up... i cant remember what a normal life is anymore. I cant take meds as im too sensitive & the GP wont refer me to mental health as they cant fund me as im not in there words a *schizophiana* person :ohmy:
I have to live on the odd private CBT session here and there when i get this bad as i cant work and have little money.
Just needed to get it off my chest
Thanks for listening, i know u all understand :hugs:
Im sat here :weep:
I have had enough!!... the slighest little thing triggers a flare :weep:
I have had CBT (funded privatly by my dad) which was great and helped me so much but my money ran out so i have not had a session for months.
Everything is creeping back up again and im fed up with anxiety 24/7 and battling it... fed up with self talking, people thinking your nuts not being able to have a social like, always having to prepare to go anywhere.
My life ATM is these 4 walls :mad:
I had my daughters school play last week. That took so much out of me :weep: i was a wreck!!... broke down as i couldnt stand being trapped in a tiny school hall crowded with kids & adults.
It was 33degrees and my daughter put so much pressure on me to be there i had to go. I sat by an open fire exit and spent the whole time self talking instead of watchin my daughters play and went on a panic attack... god knows what the play was about!!! :weep:
Now i have a nasty virus and my daughters comes home with a letter to say swine flu is in her school!... great more anxiety to add :weep:
I so upset & fed up... i cant remember what a normal life is anymore. I cant take meds as im too sensitive & the GP wont refer me to mental health as they cant fund me as im not in there words a *schizophiana* person :ohmy:
I have to live on the odd private CBT session here and there when i get this bad as i cant work and have little money.
Just needed to get it off my chest
Thanks for listening, i know u all understand :hugs: