skelingtor
08-07-09, 13:33
Not sure if i am on my own in this or if anyone else can recognise my situation as one like there own, here goes nothing
At the start of the year (2009) i was struck down with a severe bout of panic attacks, i was in such a state i had to move back to my mothers house for a month and take the time off work ( im 33 years old) the panic was health related, i was convinced i was going to die of a heart attack at anytime, i couldnt sleep, work or even function as a ' normal ' human being.
I consider myself as a very strong minded independent confident person, i was initially given Beta Blockers by my doctor to control my heart rate, after 2 weeks of these hideous drugs i was in a much worse state. I revisited my doctor to be given some really strong sleeping tablets, which i gobbled like a drug addict for two weeks, ahhhhhhh what bliss, i was once again able to sleep. Thus my long road to recovery began, i used every fibre of my being to try to get better, i consumed book after book and gradually began to understand my condition, and with the help of this wonderful site began to see i was not on my own in this. The sleeping tablets became a crutch, i recognised this after 2 weeks and was able to wean myself off them giving me much natural sleep.
I have read so many stories on this site and i feel able to tell people there is light at the end of the tunnel and it is not an oncoming train.
I have now reduced my panic and anxiety attacks to such a level that i feel able to control them, i am aware of what my body is trying to do to me and i can accept the situation thus reducing the power of panic over me.
I am now suffering from some sort of depression, some days i feel totally fine and other times i feel like throwing myself out of a window, a really deep senes of lonliness has beset me, i am surrounded by family and a really loving group of friends but i am still totally and utterly lonley. I am unsure how to proceed, i recently met a wonderful woman who made my life seem so full and happy, but i became so possesive and ridiculously angry i pushed her away leading to an even greater sense of depression.
I am in the process of dealing with this sense of depression, whats weird is i actually feel like i miss the panic attacks at least with them i was able to see a way forward. Please read this and see that we can deal with our panic, but make no bones about it is a long hard fight, anyone who could offer any advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated, thank you for taking the time to read my tale.
This site and the people on it have been a constant source of encouragement and hope to me i want to thank you all.
At the start of the year (2009) i was struck down with a severe bout of panic attacks, i was in such a state i had to move back to my mothers house for a month and take the time off work ( im 33 years old) the panic was health related, i was convinced i was going to die of a heart attack at anytime, i couldnt sleep, work or even function as a ' normal ' human being.
I consider myself as a very strong minded independent confident person, i was initially given Beta Blockers by my doctor to control my heart rate, after 2 weeks of these hideous drugs i was in a much worse state. I revisited my doctor to be given some really strong sleeping tablets, which i gobbled like a drug addict for two weeks, ahhhhhhh what bliss, i was once again able to sleep. Thus my long road to recovery began, i used every fibre of my being to try to get better, i consumed book after book and gradually began to understand my condition, and with the help of this wonderful site began to see i was not on my own in this. The sleeping tablets became a crutch, i recognised this after 2 weeks and was able to wean myself off them giving me much natural sleep.
I have read so many stories on this site and i feel able to tell people there is light at the end of the tunnel and it is not an oncoming train.
I have now reduced my panic and anxiety attacks to such a level that i feel able to control them, i am aware of what my body is trying to do to me and i can accept the situation thus reducing the power of panic over me.
I am now suffering from some sort of depression, some days i feel totally fine and other times i feel like throwing myself out of a window, a really deep senes of lonliness has beset me, i am surrounded by family and a really loving group of friends but i am still totally and utterly lonley. I am unsure how to proceed, i recently met a wonderful woman who made my life seem so full and happy, but i became so possesive and ridiculously angry i pushed her away leading to an even greater sense of depression.
I am in the process of dealing with this sense of depression, whats weird is i actually feel like i miss the panic attacks at least with them i was able to see a way forward. Please read this and see that we can deal with our panic, but make no bones about it is a long hard fight, anyone who could offer any advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated, thank you for taking the time to read my tale.
This site and the people on it have been a constant source of encouragement and hope to me i want to thank you all.