phil06
08-07-09, 17:15
I feel I've had a negative year..just struggling with anxiety any plans I've made have been cancelled and just never really got what I wanted. My mum and dad always put me down and they say things that can be hurtful, and friendships I have a friend who's always putting me down and I've fallen out with him a few times.
I feel there's alot of negative things in my life that doing nothing won't help but going back to square one and say not working is also not a good answer. Anything I do try this year fails tired for jobs never got them, been on dates never got anywhere so all my failures over the years my mum and dad will pick on. Now I've got a disciplinary at my work for leaving a shift 15 minutes early so my mum says oh I will lose my job and being negative. The positive is I've been there over a year which is twice as long as I've stuck any other job...but people will still be negative when I fail.
I guess this is what it's all about? A few years ago in 2007 I had a job I really enjoyed and a g.f and I felt I had a relaxed and comfortable life (apart from the anxiety) and I was around positive people..however this year especially I just get negative feedback..this makes me more tense and anxious and just want to hide away.
Ideally I'd have a good job, hopefully pass my driving test this year, a g.f, great friends but it won't happen..people say life is not perfect but living each day miserable because I hate my work..get a hard time at home or have negative friends is not a good reply. It may seem easy to bin negative friends but then you end up yourself and more miserable.
I'm in a bit of a twist, struggling to sleep..starting to believe it's all me..I know I have anxiety issues and OCD's but surely things can get better than this? I think when things are negative that makes my anxiety worse but as I said..I go on dates and try my best but every failure seems to give more people a backbone to put me down. I thought life was about learning?
I've been all year looking for solutions and still..none losing things would make it worse I'd rather make new friends and find a job when I'm in one..but I feel it's a mountain to climb and it's not happening for me..I just want some positive in my life...stability...I've done my best at that but I always feel dooms day of being back to square one is there...I hope it gets better I'm 21 in October and feel I want to be somewhere... :blush:
I feel there's alot of negative things in my life that doing nothing won't help but going back to square one and say not working is also not a good answer. Anything I do try this year fails tired for jobs never got them, been on dates never got anywhere so all my failures over the years my mum and dad will pick on. Now I've got a disciplinary at my work for leaving a shift 15 minutes early so my mum says oh I will lose my job and being negative. The positive is I've been there over a year which is twice as long as I've stuck any other job...but people will still be negative when I fail.
I guess this is what it's all about? A few years ago in 2007 I had a job I really enjoyed and a g.f and I felt I had a relaxed and comfortable life (apart from the anxiety) and I was around positive people..however this year especially I just get negative feedback..this makes me more tense and anxious and just want to hide away.
Ideally I'd have a good job, hopefully pass my driving test this year, a g.f, great friends but it won't happen..people say life is not perfect but living each day miserable because I hate my work..get a hard time at home or have negative friends is not a good reply. It may seem easy to bin negative friends but then you end up yourself and more miserable.
I'm in a bit of a twist, struggling to sleep..starting to believe it's all me..I know I have anxiety issues and OCD's but surely things can get better than this? I think when things are negative that makes my anxiety worse but as I said..I go on dates and try my best but every failure seems to give more people a backbone to put me down. I thought life was about learning?
I've been all year looking for solutions and still..none losing things would make it worse I'd rather make new friends and find a job when I'm in one..but I feel it's a mountain to climb and it's not happening for me..I just want some positive in my life...stability...I've done my best at that but I always feel dooms day of being back to square one is there...I hope it gets better I'm 21 in October and feel I want to be somewhere... :blush: