goddersfc87
10-07-09, 16:25
Hello everyone!,
Right ok, I just feel i want to let everything off my chest and shre with you the troubles i suffer from dealing health anxiety.
The thing that most annoys me about suffering from anxiety is that people who dont suffer from it just dont understand how crippling and deibilitating it can be. My mates just dont seem to get it, all they say is "what have u got to be anxious about?, your just bein soft" I often wish i could, for one day, just pass over the anxiety to them and see how they cope. Thats perhaps why i find this forum so comforting. To know that im not suffering alone.
My anxiety comes and goes, it has done for the past two years now, ever since i had a full on unexpected panic attack which scared the hell out of me. From then on i was convinced i somethiing wrong with my heart. The palpitations, chest pains, skiiped beats, fuzzy head etc......I hated lying down as i could feel my heart beating against the sofa or bed as that just got my mind thinking about it, which in turn leads to panic, and the scary symptoms and so on....
The fears about my heart have slowly aleviated over time. Ive been able to rationolise with myself about it. Telling myself that if there was a serious problem then someting serious would have happened by now, right? oh and i had two ECG tests done which came out perfect as well. I suggest anyone with the same fears should do the same to reassure them selves.
My anxiety has just returned. This time however it is coming in various differnt shapes and sizes. My thoughts are going crazy. I was so convinced i had a brain tumor. I felt as if the left side of my body was becoming weak and less coordinated, coupled with pressure in my ears and head i was convinced there was something sriously wrong with me. This fear has been dealt with by realising that all the symptoms i just listed are common symptoms of anxiety + at the age of 20 it is highly unlikely that i get a brain tumor.
The next worry was bone cancer. My left leg was getting tired and achy very quickly at work. The pain radiated through my feet and up my shin. And when i started to feel aches up my arms (left and right) i statred to worry about the thought of cancer spreading through my bones. Ridiculous i know, but thats the way a hyperchondriac mind works.
Another worry was, and still is whether i am suffering from some form of muscular wasting disease, or some form of degenerative disease. Every muscle in my body is so tight, i just have to tense my calves for a second and i can feel them cramping up (same with arms and fingers) my legs seem to ache so much faster at work at the moment, it really bugs me! does anyone else suffer from this at work? i work behind a bar so am on my feet all day, but the aches start within the first hour!!
Im also constantly tired, even with plenty of sleep, i feel very lothargic alot of the time. This just makes me feel more convinced ive got some form of cancer zapping all my energy up....it goes on and on
writing this has been really helpful, ive always found getting things off your chest helpful. Sorry for waffling on, but as you can tell ive been bottling up some serious emotions recently....i swear i could write on and on....but i wont
cheers,
feel free to reply and add anything u want to this thread
Right ok, I just feel i want to let everything off my chest and shre with you the troubles i suffer from dealing health anxiety.
The thing that most annoys me about suffering from anxiety is that people who dont suffer from it just dont understand how crippling and deibilitating it can be. My mates just dont seem to get it, all they say is "what have u got to be anxious about?, your just bein soft" I often wish i could, for one day, just pass over the anxiety to them and see how they cope. Thats perhaps why i find this forum so comforting. To know that im not suffering alone.
My anxiety comes and goes, it has done for the past two years now, ever since i had a full on unexpected panic attack which scared the hell out of me. From then on i was convinced i somethiing wrong with my heart. The palpitations, chest pains, skiiped beats, fuzzy head etc......I hated lying down as i could feel my heart beating against the sofa or bed as that just got my mind thinking about it, which in turn leads to panic, and the scary symptoms and so on....
The fears about my heart have slowly aleviated over time. Ive been able to rationolise with myself about it. Telling myself that if there was a serious problem then someting serious would have happened by now, right? oh and i had two ECG tests done which came out perfect as well. I suggest anyone with the same fears should do the same to reassure them selves.
My anxiety has just returned. This time however it is coming in various differnt shapes and sizes. My thoughts are going crazy. I was so convinced i had a brain tumor. I felt as if the left side of my body was becoming weak and less coordinated, coupled with pressure in my ears and head i was convinced there was something sriously wrong with me. This fear has been dealt with by realising that all the symptoms i just listed are common symptoms of anxiety + at the age of 20 it is highly unlikely that i get a brain tumor.
The next worry was bone cancer. My left leg was getting tired and achy very quickly at work. The pain radiated through my feet and up my shin. And when i started to feel aches up my arms (left and right) i statred to worry about the thought of cancer spreading through my bones. Ridiculous i know, but thats the way a hyperchondriac mind works.
Another worry was, and still is whether i am suffering from some form of muscular wasting disease, or some form of degenerative disease. Every muscle in my body is so tight, i just have to tense my calves for a second and i can feel them cramping up (same with arms and fingers) my legs seem to ache so much faster at work at the moment, it really bugs me! does anyone else suffer from this at work? i work behind a bar so am on my feet all day, but the aches start within the first hour!!
Im also constantly tired, even with plenty of sleep, i feel very lothargic alot of the time. This just makes me feel more convinced ive got some form of cancer zapping all my energy up....it goes on and on
writing this has been really helpful, ive always found getting things off your chest helpful. Sorry for waffling on, but as you can tell ive been bottling up some serious emotions recently....i swear i could write on and on....but i wont
cheers,
feel free to reply and add anything u want to this thread