garethjambo
15-09-05, 12:22
Hi guys, I thought that I would tell you my story, it may be a long one, but it really shows everyone here that all these symptoms can really be in your mind!!!!.
Once upon a time (he he he!) in Glasgow, around about christmas time, I took quite ill. It basically started with severe headaches for weeks on end. Now, at that time I was going through Uni exams, and my finances were very poor, I put it down to that. All of a sudden I started noticing things around my body (rashes, weird spots etc). Then the googling started. I had then convinced myself that I had contracted SYPHILIS from a previous sexual partner.
This is when the pins and needles, twitching, numbness etc started. I went for a test, but during that time I had convinced myself so much that I started taking panic attacks. I ended up PLEADING with the clinic to have my results back early...... to my astonishment they were NEGATIVE.
Getting on with my life, and constant 'phew that was a close one' and 'christ I thought I was done for' kept rolling through my mind. Within weeks I laughed it off with my friends, wondering how I could be so stupid!!!.
This is the second part of my story: With the stress of moving flat, finishing Uni, and my money situation getting no better, I started getting nervous, snappy and slowly thinking I was going mad.....then the symptoms started again, pins and needles, numbness, headaches, strange spots etc.
The googling started again. It started at cancer (my mum had melanoma previously in her life, I started asking her questions about it).
This is the last part of my story and the most interesting I think !!.
Now, at this point I had CONVINCED myself that I had HIV. I had so many symptoms it was hard to keep up!!. The thing about these symptoms was that everytime I looked them up, they all amongst other things mentioned one thing HIV/AIDS!!.
Added Symptoms by now:
Mouth Ulcers
Thrush
Painfull Mouth
Night Sweats (definately the most scary, you CAN get them with anxiety)
Freezing all the time
A constant cold
Bruising
Cuts that I THOUGHT took ages to heal
With all of these symptoms I thought that I DEFINATELY had HIV/AIDS. Checking my body was becoming obssesive, I was shutting all of my friends away, crying constantly, enquiring about taking out massive loans as I thought I was going to snuff it anyway. I also had the dilemma of telling my girlfriend, who I love so much, that I might have given her HIV. I reluctantly went for the test, and within that waiting period of a week, I had become a total different person, I had basically turned into a nervous wreck. My parents took me home and was worried that I was suffering from mental problems, I had never felt so much guilt, anger and dismay in all my life.
This morning, I woke up to my mum staring at me. I totally jumped about five feet into the air!!. She had the biggest smile on her face, as she explained that the doctor had been on the phone......
IT WAS NEGATIVE!!!!!!!!!
I could not believe her, I kept having to ask her if she was telling the truth?!. I had CONVINCED myslelf that I had it, and nothing was going to change my mind until I got the test beck!!!.
Now, I appologise about this rather long post, but I had to tell someone, and you guys are going through the same as me, so I thought you may appretiate the story (or not!).
The real moral of this story is
1. DO NOT LOOK UP THE INTERNET FOR SYMPTOMS, come to no more panic and use the symptoms forum, that Is what it is there for!! or go and see the doctor.
2. YOUR MIND CAN IMAGINE ANYTHING, it really can, stress and anxiety can tell your mind anything it wants, the symptoms are far beyond what you read about it.
THANKS GUYS!!!!!!
Gareth.
Once upon a time (he he he!) in Glasgow, around about christmas time, I took quite ill. It basically started with severe headaches for weeks on end. Now, at that time I was going through Uni exams, and my finances were very poor, I put it down to that. All of a sudden I started noticing things around my body (rashes, weird spots etc). Then the googling started. I had then convinced myself that I had contracted SYPHILIS from a previous sexual partner.
This is when the pins and needles, twitching, numbness etc started. I went for a test, but during that time I had convinced myself so much that I started taking panic attacks. I ended up PLEADING with the clinic to have my results back early...... to my astonishment they were NEGATIVE.
Getting on with my life, and constant 'phew that was a close one' and 'christ I thought I was done for' kept rolling through my mind. Within weeks I laughed it off with my friends, wondering how I could be so stupid!!!.
This is the second part of my story: With the stress of moving flat, finishing Uni, and my money situation getting no better, I started getting nervous, snappy and slowly thinking I was going mad.....then the symptoms started again, pins and needles, numbness, headaches, strange spots etc.
The googling started again. It started at cancer (my mum had melanoma previously in her life, I started asking her questions about it).
This is the last part of my story and the most interesting I think !!.
Now, at this point I had CONVINCED myself that I had HIV. I had so many symptoms it was hard to keep up!!. The thing about these symptoms was that everytime I looked them up, they all amongst other things mentioned one thing HIV/AIDS!!.
Added Symptoms by now:
Mouth Ulcers
Thrush
Painfull Mouth
Night Sweats (definately the most scary, you CAN get them with anxiety)
Freezing all the time
A constant cold
Bruising
Cuts that I THOUGHT took ages to heal
With all of these symptoms I thought that I DEFINATELY had HIV/AIDS. Checking my body was becoming obssesive, I was shutting all of my friends away, crying constantly, enquiring about taking out massive loans as I thought I was going to snuff it anyway. I also had the dilemma of telling my girlfriend, who I love so much, that I might have given her HIV. I reluctantly went for the test, and within that waiting period of a week, I had become a total different person, I had basically turned into a nervous wreck. My parents took me home and was worried that I was suffering from mental problems, I had never felt so much guilt, anger and dismay in all my life.
This morning, I woke up to my mum staring at me. I totally jumped about five feet into the air!!. She had the biggest smile on her face, as she explained that the doctor had been on the phone......
IT WAS NEGATIVE!!!!!!!!!
I could not believe her, I kept having to ask her if she was telling the truth?!. I had CONVINCED myslelf that I had it, and nothing was going to change my mind until I got the test beck!!!.
Now, I appologise about this rather long post, but I had to tell someone, and you guys are going through the same as me, so I thought you may appretiate the story (or not!).
The real moral of this story is
1. DO NOT LOOK UP THE INTERNET FOR SYMPTOMS, come to no more panic and use the symptoms forum, that Is what it is there for!! or go and see the doctor.
2. YOUR MIND CAN IMAGINE ANYTHING, it really can, stress and anxiety can tell your mind anything it wants, the symptoms are far beyond what you read about it.
THANKS GUYS!!!!!!
Gareth.