lesleya
13-07-09, 19:45
I went back to work today...well i was forced to go back as i was given the choice of going back to work today or loosing my job!
Basically i was encouraged and pushed last september into putting in a harrassment/bullying grievance in against a woman at work by my ops manager and team manager who just really used me as a scapegoat to get rid of this person as i wasnt the only person she had caused problems for, plus she had lied on her cv and it was found she had worked in our office a number of years ago and had left under a cloud!!
I was brought in a few times while on sick in to be interviewed (grilled) by 2 managers and an hr rep at the end of january this year and it was really awful. The woman i'd put a grievance in against was never brought in as she had gone on sick too, but when she did eventually come back to work in march this year she resigned the same day!! My manager told me it wasnt because of the grievance because she had not been confronted about it:shrug:
I was so angry and upset that id gone through all of that for what?...for nothing!! it felt like id totally wasted my time, but they expected me to go back to work straight away as if nothing had happened just because this woman had resigned, but i just couldnt do it then i was a right mess and in no way ready to go to work.
To cut a long story short i requested 'redeployment' to a different office so that i could make a new start, but nothing came of that. Ive had numerous 'care and concern' meetings with hr and management over the last few months and was told that they couldnt keep me on their books indefinitely eventhough id had no wages for 4 months so i wasnt costing them anything surely?... so i was given 2 choices... either i resign or be dismissed on the grounds of 'capability' which means that they didnt think i was able to go back to my old job because of anxiety. So i told them no way was i going to resign and that i wanted to go back to my old job, and after a lot of humming a tutting and saying that they dont usually get anyone asking to do that they told me i could have my old job back but only if i returned to work when my sick note ran out last week. So i was given no choice eventhough my dr wont sign me off and im actually still covered by a sick note they said i had to come back today!
I had my return to work with my new manager, and i was very blunt and straight after he asked me how i was feeling and was i ready for work...so i told him no i wasnt and that i was being forced back by hr and i was so disgusted with the whole thing etc etc. They've bent over backwards to be nice to me today but i just dont feel the same about my job anymore and i dont trust them now, i used to enjoy my job and i got on well with the people i worked with (apart from one) but all this has made me feel like i dont fit in anymore:weep: If it hadnt been for my husband pushing me this morning i wouldnt have gone back, i felt physically sick at the thought, but i suppose i owed it to myself to try. Im due in tomorrow but im not sure if i will be able to do it again...i just dont know:unsure:
Ive had a viral infection for the. last week or so, so that doesnt help.
Then my husband drops a bombshell tonight saying one of his joiners in the factory is off with swine flu....aaaggghhh:ohmy: ....he went to the drs a week past friday and so yes now im worried that the viral thing ive got might be more than viral. Im probably being stupid i know but im feeling so low im not thinking rationally.
Sorry for rambling on but i needed to get it off my chest as you all understand what im feeling better than anyone else:roflmao: .
Thanks
xxx
Basically i was encouraged and pushed last september into putting in a harrassment/bullying grievance in against a woman at work by my ops manager and team manager who just really used me as a scapegoat to get rid of this person as i wasnt the only person she had caused problems for, plus she had lied on her cv and it was found she had worked in our office a number of years ago and had left under a cloud!!
I was brought in a few times while on sick in to be interviewed (grilled) by 2 managers and an hr rep at the end of january this year and it was really awful. The woman i'd put a grievance in against was never brought in as she had gone on sick too, but when she did eventually come back to work in march this year she resigned the same day!! My manager told me it wasnt because of the grievance because she had not been confronted about it:shrug:
I was so angry and upset that id gone through all of that for what?...for nothing!! it felt like id totally wasted my time, but they expected me to go back to work straight away as if nothing had happened just because this woman had resigned, but i just couldnt do it then i was a right mess and in no way ready to go to work.
To cut a long story short i requested 'redeployment' to a different office so that i could make a new start, but nothing came of that. Ive had numerous 'care and concern' meetings with hr and management over the last few months and was told that they couldnt keep me on their books indefinitely eventhough id had no wages for 4 months so i wasnt costing them anything surely?... so i was given 2 choices... either i resign or be dismissed on the grounds of 'capability' which means that they didnt think i was able to go back to my old job because of anxiety. So i told them no way was i going to resign and that i wanted to go back to my old job, and after a lot of humming a tutting and saying that they dont usually get anyone asking to do that they told me i could have my old job back but only if i returned to work when my sick note ran out last week. So i was given no choice eventhough my dr wont sign me off and im actually still covered by a sick note they said i had to come back today!
I had my return to work with my new manager, and i was very blunt and straight after he asked me how i was feeling and was i ready for work...so i told him no i wasnt and that i was being forced back by hr and i was so disgusted with the whole thing etc etc. They've bent over backwards to be nice to me today but i just dont feel the same about my job anymore and i dont trust them now, i used to enjoy my job and i got on well with the people i worked with (apart from one) but all this has made me feel like i dont fit in anymore:weep: If it hadnt been for my husband pushing me this morning i wouldnt have gone back, i felt physically sick at the thought, but i suppose i owed it to myself to try. Im due in tomorrow but im not sure if i will be able to do it again...i just dont know:unsure:
Ive had a viral infection for the. last week or so, so that doesnt help.
Then my husband drops a bombshell tonight saying one of his joiners in the factory is off with swine flu....aaaggghhh:ohmy: ....he went to the drs a week past friday and so yes now im worried that the viral thing ive got might be more than viral. Im probably being stupid i know but im feeling so low im not thinking rationally.
Sorry for rambling on but i needed to get it off my chest as you all understand what im feeling better than anyone else:roflmao: .
Thanks
xxx