belle
15-07-09, 20:04
I have been seeing my new fella for a month. It's all still very new and quite nice! One BIG problem. He wants me to stay at his house on Sunday night. I don't think i am ready to do that yet. I don't think i can even get to his house yet. I haven't been out in the car alone with him. I have been in his car followed by my mother (twice)...and i have walked around my block with him. Thing is, i am still very much agoraphobic and rely on my mother to take me places. When i got in the car with him the other day, it was the first time i had been in anyones car other than my mothers for YEARS!
I am worried that i will panic at his house and i will be so panicky (knowing how i get) that i get frozen in fear and stuck at his house unable to get back to mine.
I would love to stay at his and show him that i am willing to make these first steps to recovery, but fear is taking over...
Any ideas?
Btw..to get to his is about 5 minutes on a dual carriageway...with NO exits apart from his....then another couple of minutes up a horrible busy road.
I am worried that i will panic at his house and i will be so panicky (knowing how i get) that i get frozen in fear and stuck at his house unable to get back to mine.
I would love to stay at his and show him that i am willing to make these first steps to recovery, but fear is taking over...
Any ideas?
Btw..to get to his is about 5 minutes on a dual carriageway...with NO exits apart from his....then another couple of minutes up a horrible busy road.