sMINT
18-07-09, 15:34
Well where do I start, Theres so many things going wrong in my life at the moment.
I used to suffer from panic attacks although I still get them my main worry is no Health anxiety.
Every single bloody day I have a new illness. At the moment its cancer. I feel as if something is really wrong with me and my body feels so weak sometimes I think I 'must' have a serious illness attacking me. I know this is the wrong attitude but I cant help it, If I could I wouldnt be feeling like this.
I cant exercise becuase of this, I feel to ill to move some days. I mean, Im only 19, I should be active and having fun. I think I have had 6 colds now within 2 months, My imune system is so weak due to all my stress.
I cant remember the last time I felt 'normal' and my old self.
Ive lost nearly all my friends, No one bothers with me any more.
The job centre have kicked me off my benefits. I have been looking for work but they claim that I turned down an opportunity. This is more stress I cannot be dealing with right now, Im completely broke.
I have developped an OCD I think with my weight, I feel I am too skinny and am constanty weighing myself. I really cannot put on weight.
I have spoken to I think every single doctor at my surgery, Who all of them see to not care, I have been reffered to a mental health liason nurse who put me on a 6 week course for stress (I dont know why, as when i finished it I discovered there was a specific anxiety course). I explained to him the course done nothing and he was shocked to see me again thinking the course was some kind of magic cure.
All I want is to be put on a CBT waiting list. Which I am being refused telling me theres no such thing.
Im at a dead end. Im due to go to Uni in 2 months which is looking doubful at the moment. I dont know where to turn.
It is as if my life has come to an end unles I can get enough money to go to private counsiling :mad::mad::weep::weep:
Phew, Sorry about such a long topic. Feels nice to get it all out though lol.
I used to suffer from panic attacks although I still get them my main worry is no Health anxiety.
Every single bloody day I have a new illness. At the moment its cancer. I feel as if something is really wrong with me and my body feels so weak sometimes I think I 'must' have a serious illness attacking me. I know this is the wrong attitude but I cant help it, If I could I wouldnt be feeling like this.
I cant exercise becuase of this, I feel to ill to move some days. I mean, Im only 19, I should be active and having fun. I think I have had 6 colds now within 2 months, My imune system is so weak due to all my stress.
I cant remember the last time I felt 'normal' and my old self.
Ive lost nearly all my friends, No one bothers with me any more.
The job centre have kicked me off my benefits. I have been looking for work but they claim that I turned down an opportunity. This is more stress I cannot be dealing with right now, Im completely broke.
I have developped an OCD I think with my weight, I feel I am too skinny and am constanty weighing myself. I really cannot put on weight.
I have spoken to I think every single doctor at my surgery, Who all of them see to not care, I have been reffered to a mental health liason nurse who put me on a 6 week course for stress (I dont know why, as when i finished it I discovered there was a specific anxiety course). I explained to him the course done nothing and he was shocked to see me again thinking the course was some kind of magic cure.
All I want is to be put on a CBT waiting list. Which I am being refused telling me theres no such thing.
Im at a dead end. Im due to go to Uni in 2 months which is looking doubful at the moment. I dont know where to turn.
It is as if my life has come to an end unles I can get enough money to go to private counsiling :mad::mad::weep::weep:
Phew, Sorry about such a long topic. Feels nice to get it all out though lol.