baldy_dude
31-07-09, 11:43
Folks - I've been on this forum quite a bit maybe 9 months ago when i was dealing with a major bout of panic/anxiety. Thankfully I got through that episode and was pretty much my normal self right up to now.... but now its something different.....
I'm not having the symptoms I used to have (health fears, pounding heart, the shakes, etc) instead its almost a different manifisation of my panic and anxiety. I'm happily married with amazing kids, great house, great jobs... but just in the past 2 weeks I've been completely going up the walls with my insecurity and paranoid feelings of intense jealousy..... it is getting me really down. I can go through a day or two fairly confident and happy, then BAM! 1 tiny comment, 1 suspicion and I'm a recluse within my own mind, with irrational thoughts bouncing right through my mind.... when this happens i cannot be distracted, I'm 100% focus on negativity. It is clear to see from those around me. But I cannot open up... I know if I did open up and was brutely honest, it could damage my relationship but at the same time make me feel a lot better....
trapped.....
baldy
I'm not having the symptoms I used to have (health fears, pounding heart, the shakes, etc) instead its almost a different manifisation of my panic and anxiety. I'm happily married with amazing kids, great house, great jobs... but just in the past 2 weeks I've been completely going up the walls with my insecurity and paranoid feelings of intense jealousy..... it is getting me really down. I can go through a day or two fairly confident and happy, then BAM! 1 tiny comment, 1 suspicion and I'm a recluse within my own mind, with irrational thoughts bouncing right through my mind.... when this happens i cannot be distracted, I'm 100% focus on negativity. It is clear to see from those around me. But I cannot open up... I know if I did open up and was brutely honest, it could damage my relationship but at the same time make me feel a lot better....
trapped.....
baldy