miss_moose
01-08-09, 09:46
I'm having a dilema and trouble deciding what to do.
I have agoraphobia and social phobia at a really exteme level, i live with my fiance who is my only safe person (i cant even see my family and i dont have any friends).
He is going on a stag doo tonight which is in a city about an hour and a half away from home.
I've been extremely panicky recently, having alot of panic attacks over this but also unexplained ones, especially when i've gone to bed and firt thing in the morning;.
I have 2 options;
1. Stay at home. Be alone from 12pm Saturday untill late afternoon Sunday, which depresses me and makes me panic. Be bored. Worry constantly about him (OCD) and I have bad seperation anxiety.
But have my home comforts.
2. Go to the hotel. Be alone but only from about 5pm till 12:30am. Put up with the travel sickness of the journey.
Be bored, panicky. Panicking in a strage place.
But have the laptop with me for internet and tv shows.
I'd also feel closer to him because he'll only be about 20mins away so the seperation anxiety wont be as bad.
Im not sure what to do, I dont want to be home alone all day, but i also dont want to be having panic attacks in a strange place. When i have them i want to just be alone but i wont be able to to when he gets back.
Any advice would be much appreciated, thank you x
I have agoraphobia and social phobia at a really exteme level, i live with my fiance who is my only safe person (i cant even see my family and i dont have any friends).
He is going on a stag doo tonight which is in a city about an hour and a half away from home.
I've been extremely panicky recently, having alot of panic attacks over this but also unexplained ones, especially when i've gone to bed and firt thing in the morning;.
I have 2 options;
1. Stay at home. Be alone from 12pm Saturday untill late afternoon Sunday, which depresses me and makes me panic. Be bored. Worry constantly about him (OCD) and I have bad seperation anxiety.
But have my home comforts.
2. Go to the hotel. Be alone but only from about 5pm till 12:30am. Put up with the travel sickness of the journey.
Be bored, panicky. Panicking in a strage place.
But have the laptop with me for internet and tv shows.
I'd also feel closer to him because he'll only be about 20mins away so the seperation anxiety wont be as bad.
Im not sure what to do, I dont want to be home alone all day, but i also dont want to be having panic attacks in a strange place. When i have them i want to just be alone but i wont be able to to when he gets back.
Any advice would be much appreciated, thank you x