wombat
02-08-09, 18:47
Hi,
Here's my story and just wanted to see if anybody can relate to this:
1)Going to casualty to different hospitals with chest pains quite a few times, breathing problems, visiting the doctor to be referred to specialists.
Been to see a spine specialist, urologist, gastroenterologist and had HIV tests in the past and had to go through various different tests...even had to have a camera in my bladder which was awful!
For eg: I do get pains in my chest which is true but because I focus on the pain it feels worse and even though deep down I know it won't be anything I have to get it checked....just in case.
With my back I did have pains down my leg but before my appointments due I will research things on the internet and then start to imagine it could be this or it could be that....and it just escalates!!!!!!
I've just had an MRI scan on my colon because I've been feeling bloated which is true and passed some blood ( which I know is an internal pile) but again just wanted to get it checked....just in case.
My scan has just come back to say they have found some diverticulae in my colon so now I will research it and imagine I have an abscess so will mention it to the gastroenterologist. Because i have researched piles I no you can have them banded so am now going to ask if I can have it banded.
It's as If I enjoy being at the hospitals as well and look forward to having the procedures done....which i suppose is to do with reassurance. It's not as if i want to be ill.
I mentioned it to my psychiatrist and he wants to see me on Tuesday and is writing to my doctor so god knows what he's going to say to him.
He's already diagnosed me with OCD and depression - none of the anti depressants work for me because they stop me from sleeping and my psychologist has said hypochondria and ocd are closely linked in the past.
I need to stop doing it because it's ruining my life and just making me depressed.
I know if have to stop researching medical conditions on the internet as well because I even doubt I have ocd and depression even though they've told me 100 times that I have.
My whole life is dominated by illness.....aaarrrrggghhh!!
Thanks for reading,
Wombat xx
Here's my story and just wanted to see if anybody can relate to this:
1)Going to casualty to different hospitals with chest pains quite a few times, breathing problems, visiting the doctor to be referred to specialists.
Been to see a spine specialist, urologist, gastroenterologist and had HIV tests in the past and had to go through various different tests...even had to have a camera in my bladder which was awful!
For eg: I do get pains in my chest which is true but because I focus on the pain it feels worse and even though deep down I know it won't be anything I have to get it checked....just in case.
With my back I did have pains down my leg but before my appointments due I will research things on the internet and then start to imagine it could be this or it could be that....and it just escalates!!!!!!
I've just had an MRI scan on my colon because I've been feeling bloated which is true and passed some blood ( which I know is an internal pile) but again just wanted to get it checked....just in case.
My scan has just come back to say they have found some diverticulae in my colon so now I will research it and imagine I have an abscess so will mention it to the gastroenterologist. Because i have researched piles I no you can have them banded so am now going to ask if I can have it banded.
It's as If I enjoy being at the hospitals as well and look forward to having the procedures done....which i suppose is to do with reassurance. It's not as if i want to be ill.
I mentioned it to my psychiatrist and he wants to see me on Tuesday and is writing to my doctor so god knows what he's going to say to him.
He's already diagnosed me with OCD and depression - none of the anti depressants work for me because they stop me from sleeping and my psychologist has said hypochondria and ocd are closely linked in the past.
I need to stop doing it because it's ruining my life and just making me depressed.
I know if have to stop researching medical conditions on the internet as well because I even doubt I have ocd and depression even though they've told me 100 times that I have.
My whole life is dominated by illness.....aaarrrrggghhh!!
Thanks for reading,
Wombat xx