sweet_petite83
03-08-09, 15:33
Hi,
Not posted on there for a while because I have been doing a lot better lately, managing to hold down a job and have some kind of social life. Although my panic attacks came back with a vegance last night and i feel like its knocked me back to square one:(
Had a really rough night saturday night, didnt get in until the early hours of the morning and im ashamed to admit it did a lot of binge drinking. Remember coming back throwing up and passing out in my bed:S Normally i get terrible hangovers accompanied with increased anxiety but I can normally tell myself its due to the drink and calm myself down. I was laid in bed watching something on my laptop and just started feeling really strange (i already felt very nauseous) I cant describe it but i just felt like I was detached and didnt understand who I was or where I was anymore, I felt like I needed to runaway from myself even though I was trapped in my own head:S It felt much worse than any attack ive had before and I was convinced Id been spiked the night before, i was freaking out!
My mam came back and I was in such a state she had to call an ambulance, I was so out of it that I just wanted to be put out of my misery:( The ambulance men were lovely and tried to get me breathing properly, I was shaking uncontrollably and really disorientated. They took me into the back of the ambulance and did some blood tests and heart monitors on me, I had slightly raised blood pressure and heart rate.
I ended up been taken to the hospital, and the anxiety was coming in waves for a few hours and I kept throwing up. The doctor couldn't find anything physically wrong with me so I was sent home the same night. I had to take half a valium to calm me down enough to sleep:(.
Its the next day and I feel awful, anxious and mentally exhausted. I feel ashamed for having to be put into an ambulance and I'm still scared that this wasnt just a normal panic attack but a sign of me going insane or something, I was convinced I was going to be put into a strait jacket at any moment. i dont want to lose my job or my life I've worked so hard to have.......just need some reassurance because it's really shaken me up:(
xx
Not posted on there for a while because I have been doing a lot better lately, managing to hold down a job and have some kind of social life. Although my panic attacks came back with a vegance last night and i feel like its knocked me back to square one:(
Had a really rough night saturday night, didnt get in until the early hours of the morning and im ashamed to admit it did a lot of binge drinking. Remember coming back throwing up and passing out in my bed:S Normally i get terrible hangovers accompanied with increased anxiety but I can normally tell myself its due to the drink and calm myself down. I was laid in bed watching something on my laptop and just started feeling really strange (i already felt very nauseous) I cant describe it but i just felt like I was detached and didnt understand who I was or where I was anymore, I felt like I needed to runaway from myself even though I was trapped in my own head:S It felt much worse than any attack ive had before and I was convinced Id been spiked the night before, i was freaking out!
My mam came back and I was in such a state she had to call an ambulance, I was so out of it that I just wanted to be put out of my misery:( The ambulance men were lovely and tried to get me breathing properly, I was shaking uncontrollably and really disorientated. They took me into the back of the ambulance and did some blood tests and heart monitors on me, I had slightly raised blood pressure and heart rate.
I ended up been taken to the hospital, and the anxiety was coming in waves for a few hours and I kept throwing up. The doctor couldn't find anything physically wrong with me so I was sent home the same night. I had to take half a valium to calm me down enough to sleep:(.
Its the next day and I feel awful, anxious and mentally exhausted. I feel ashamed for having to be put into an ambulance and I'm still scared that this wasnt just a normal panic attack but a sign of me going insane or something, I was convinced I was going to be put into a strait jacket at any moment. i dont want to lose my job or my life I've worked so hard to have.......just need some reassurance because it's really shaken me up:(
xx