daisycake
03-08-09, 18:55
I'm not coping anymore. Every single day since Friday I have been worrying about carbon monoxide (yes, I know, I'm obsessed) which is now fuelled due to the fact our coooker has orange flames - cue me panicing constantly. Itt's also cutting out every so often - I'm so worried that we're going to die (my mum sister and I)
I won't let myself sleep until 1am now so that I can check my symptoms and then if I do have poisoning I can try to seek help - which I can't do if I'm sleeping!
On top of that, my mum has NEAD (non epileptic attack disorder) and over the last two days she's had a few bad attacks - I'm sure it's my problems that are making her worse, she says she's very tired and sad that I can't trust her - it's not that I don't, it's like I don't know how to trust anyone.
I've resigned myself to the fact I can no longer cope and don't know what to do - other than maybe phone NHS 24 or some other helpline; I just need someone who can listen to me? I feel so bad because my mum is trying so hard, last night she sat and read one of the self-help guides I've been given and we discussed different strategies and I felt really good, for about two hours, bt the worries just keep coming flooding back - each time worse than before.
Please help :weep:
I won't let myself sleep until 1am now so that I can check my symptoms and then if I do have poisoning I can try to seek help - which I can't do if I'm sleeping!
On top of that, my mum has NEAD (non epileptic attack disorder) and over the last two days she's had a few bad attacks - I'm sure it's my problems that are making her worse, she says she's very tired and sad that I can't trust her - it's not that I don't, it's like I don't know how to trust anyone.
I've resigned myself to the fact I can no longer cope and don't know what to do - other than maybe phone NHS 24 or some other helpline; I just need someone who can listen to me? I feel so bad because my mum is trying so hard, last night she sat and read one of the self-help guides I've been given and we discussed different strategies and I felt really good, for about two hours, bt the worries just keep coming flooding back - each time worse than before.
Please help :weep: