Mixed feelings

[alexis]

Hi all, for some reason I was looking in my profile tonight and I realised I had been here exactly 6 months to the day.
At first my heart sank and all the negative thoughts came, phhhh 6 months , what am I still doing here. 6 months I should be cured. 6 months and Im no better etc etc, but then I thought different............. I have been here 6 months but I can remember the day I found this site ( had it found for me actually) I can remember how bad I felt, how scared I was, how completely isolated I was and felt a failure.Had no idea where to turn after suffering with this for over a year now.
Today?? Yes I have had a blip lately, am struggling with it still, i dont mind admitting,but I feel I have suceeded, I am at work full time, I can usually go into shops again now and if not I stand outside calmly.. people watching while sending my family in, I have just made myself have a full week in the staffroom,it is hard there is no getting away from the fact but sometimes you need to look further back than yesterday or last week to see what steps you have made. I am so greatful for being here 6 months now, I have made so may friends, some I have met, one I continue to meet up with, more I hope to meet very soon.
Not really sure why I posted really just to say, if you dont feel so good , keep going we all move forwards.
trust me Ive been there and am there , take care love Alexis,xxx

Alexis

[Sue K with 5]

Thanks Alex

Yoru so right in what you have said, I look back over the years to where mine began and like you my heart sinks, but there are so many positives that I have discovered recently and the good does tend to outweigh the bad

Thank you for posting and for the boost


Love and hugs



Sue with 5

scknight

[kairen]

yes you have come a long way alexis,

see you tomorrow xxxx

kairen x

[Piglet]

Aww Piggy,

That's a lovely post and one I really identify with - I joined not long after you and feel the same way. Lots has improved and lots of work still in progress.

Catch you soon

Love Piglet xx

"Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it?" said Piglet.
"Supposing it didn't," said Pooh after careful thought.

[seh1980]

aaaawwwww Alexis you are so right. You hasve improved loads so don't think otherwise!! :D

"If life were simple, word would have got around"

[trac67]

Alexis you are doing brilliant, we all have our blips, but i would rather have a blip than feel the way i did this time last year.
Take care
Trac xx

its "just a thought"

[Meg]

Alexis

You have done extremely well and will continue to do so.





Meg
www.anxietymanagementltd.com

Your anxiety is the human representation of the pictures that you paint using your many vivid colours of revolving and reoccurring thoughts.
How big is your gallery ?

[Wannabeloved85]

Alexis,
I know the feeling of looking back and thinking'im still here,still this way' but i think we can all look back and now say,im not as bad as i was then! thats because we now have information on this, we know what it is.
Its how one deals with it all. and obviously in 6 months,youve done well!
Keep up the good work
Becci x x x

[Karen]

Hi Alexis

You have made a lot of progress in the last year and are continuing to move forward.

Everyone does have blips as others have said but you pick yourself up and move on again.

I read this poem (http://www.wellenergy.com/consegrity/NelsonPortia.html) today.


Karen



It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere.

[nomorepanic]

I think you are doing great mate and it is lovely to talk to you on MSN in the evenings.

I will miss piggy if you went now[V]

Things will improve and don't worry about timescales ok - it will come in time.

xx

Nicola

"Nearly all happiness comes into our lives through doors we don't even remember leaving open"

[chucklehound]

Well Done alexis for making such fantastic progress!!!

You have come a long way, keep up the great work hun

Speak to you soon on MSN

Bye for now

Chucklehound
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