col410
07-08-09, 07:46
I am on the verge of a panic attack because my anxiety-filled mind thinks that I have some kind of GI or gynecological cancer. There are a few things that I am trying to keep in mind so that I do not have a meltdown about this, because I know that they are influencing how I feel.
1. I currently have my period, i.e. the hormones are raging.
2. I just stopped taking Lexapro altogether last week after being on it for over a year.
3. My wonderful bunny died in front of me several days ago.
I guess I am just rambling because I feel so edgy right now that I need to write it down. Last year, I had major anxiety, along with a few panic attacks (terrifying!), after I was diagnosed with shingles in May. I went on to convince myself that I had a tumor or something in my breast (mammogram was negative) and then a brain tumor (MRI scan was negative). Then I started therapy and meds and the anxiety was seemingly under control until the last month or so. I know that anxiety can produce a ton of different physical symptoms, especially when you obsess about a particular area (which for me at this point is my abdomen, groin and pelvis), but my pessimistic and anxiety-filled mind is filled with worst-case scenario thoughts again. What a vicious cycle!
Thanks for reading this, and please feel free to put your two cents in. I know so many of you can relate to these thoughts and feelings. I've been on this roller coaster ride for long enough to know that once the seed of doubt has been planted, it grows like a weed. :wacko:
1. I currently have my period, i.e. the hormones are raging.
2. I just stopped taking Lexapro altogether last week after being on it for over a year.
3. My wonderful bunny died in front of me several days ago.
I guess I am just rambling because I feel so edgy right now that I need to write it down. Last year, I had major anxiety, along with a few panic attacks (terrifying!), after I was diagnosed with shingles in May. I went on to convince myself that I had a tumor or something in my breast (mammogram was negative) and then a brain tumor (MRI scan was negative). Then I started therapy and meds and the anxiety was seemingly under control until the last month or so. I know that anxiety can produce a ton of different physical symptoms, especially when you obsess about a particular area (which for me at this point is my abdomen, groin and pelvis), but my pessimistic and anxiety-filled mind is filled with worst-case scenario thoughts again. What a vicious cycle!
Thanks for reading this, and please feel free to put your two cents in. I know so many of you can relate to these thoughts and feelings. I've been on this roller coaster ride for long enough to know that once the seed of doubt has been planted, it grows like a weed. :wacko: