johnboyd
12-08-09, 03:38
i started having DP/DR 14 months ago. I did experience a different version of it while i was high on weed and ecstasy. I remember one time when i did ecstasy i got a panic attack thinking i was going to die. I spent two hours on bed just waiting for my hear to stop pounding. Well obviously it never happened but that was the very time i experienced something like DP/DR. I woke up the day after and it just went away. I also used to get this weird feeling very similar to DP/DR when i smoked weed. It wouldn't happen when i first started but the more i smoke the more i got the dreamy feeling in my high from the pot. It all became chronic about 11 months ago when i got a panic attack out of no where. It was a year after i quit doing ecstasy and smoking weed. So it was kind of weird and when i got a panic attack for no reason. I remember when i first got it i felt really bad for a month and started to feel better for a week or so and after that bang it just came back until today. I can't recall having a day and feeling normal. This has been really bothering me in the past few months. I feel like im kind of losing it. I can't have a normal relationship with my girlfriend. I can't go out with friends, because i just dont enjoy being out and feeling like im dreaming. I have read a lot of posts both on here and other forums on people having it for years and sometimes for their whole lives and thinking about that just makes me lose it. I want to feel normal and feel the real world again. I just dont know what to do. I just wanted to post this because i was really having a bad night and wanted to let it all out.
Is there anyone in here that got DP/DR 24/7 for a year and got cured?
Sometimes i think maybe if i change my lifestyle it would make things better but every time i start doing so something happens. Well to be honest i dont have a regular sleep pattern. Most the time i go to bed at 3-5 am and wake up around 1pm. I wake up eat a bowl of cereal and i wont have anything to eat until 5-6pm. Most of the time i spend my time sitting behind the computer and if i go out i usually go to see my girlfriend for 3-4 hours but as you can guess i just feel like sh*t because i feel like shes not even real nor am i. I also dont exercise and im kind of underweight for my age and height. I tried fixing my lifestyle for a week like started exercising, eating 3-4 meals a day, eating vegetables lots of water and it didnt help. To be honest it just made it even worse. I just feel like this is not the reason im stuck in this DP/DR. When i had school my schedule was kind of better. i used to eat better and sleep better but i still had the DP/DR constantly.
It does seem like i suffer from anxiety. Because i do get a lot of muscle twitches and sharp pain in my body. I sometimes think i have some sort of other problems like MS, stomach cancer and other deadly diseases. I guess i have a severe health anxiety as well. Well my university is going to start in 3 weeks and i just feel like i can't do it like this. Im seeing a psychiatrist in two weeks but i dont really want to go on medications.
I sometimes even think what i have is not DP/DR. Like its so hard for me to explain and sometimes i can't find any posts that exactly describe how i feel. I feel like im alone on this. I go out and im driving and i feel like all these cars passing by are pictures, and people feel solid, trees feel like a painting, when i look at my girlfriend i feel like shes empty, solid, doll. I also noticed if i dont wear my sun glasses my DP/DR is 100 times worse. Drinking doesnt help with my symptoms as well. In the past year i have only drank two times and both time my DP/DR got worse. Nothing helps.
Is there anyone in here that got DP/DR 24/7 for a year and got cured?
Sometimes i think maybe if i change my lifestyle it would make things better but every time i start doing so something happens. Well to be honest i dont have a regular sleep pattern. Most the time i go to bed at 3-5 am and wake up around 1pm. I wake up eat a bowl of cereal and i wont have anything to eat until 5-6pm. Most of the time i spend my time sitting behind the computer and if i go out i usually go to see my girlfriend for 3-4 hours but as you can guess i just feel like sh*t because i feel like shes not even real nor am i. I also dont exercise and im kind of underweight for my age and height. I tried fixing my lifestyle for a week like started exercising, eating 3-4 meals a day, eating vegetables lots of water and it didnt help. To be honest it just made it even worse. I just feel like this is not the reason im stuck in this DP/DR. When i had school my schedule was kind of better. i used to eat better and sleep better but i still had the DP/DR constantly.
It does seem like i suffer from anxiety. Because i do get a lot of muscle twitches and sharp pain in my body. I sometimes think i have some sort of other problems like MS, stomach cancer and other deadly diseases. I guess i have a severe health anxiety as well. Well my university is going to start in 3 weeks and i just feel like i can't do it like this. Im seeing a psychiatrist in two weeks but i dont really want to go on medications.
I sometimes even think what i have is not DP/DR. Like its so hard for me to explain and sometimes i can't find any posts that exactly describe how i feel. I feel like im alone on this. I go out and im driving and i feel like all these cars passing by are pictures, and people feel solid, trees feel like a painting, when i look at my girlfriend i feel like shes empty, solid, doll. I also noticed if i dont wear my sun glasses my DP/DR is 100 times worse. Drinking doesnt help with my symptoms as well. In the past year i have only drank two times and both time my DP/DR got worse. Nothing helps.