marcc64
13-08-09, 17:10
Hi all, i have posted here before but never really told anyone my full story about my anxiety so here goes.
Well I am 18 and have had anxiety most my life but it was on and off never really had any physical symptoms with it until recently. My mum passed away with breast cancer when i was 2 years old ( i don't really have any memory of her) my dad raised me and my brother and sister from that age by him self. I have always had problems trusting girls in relationships ect. (maybe my own insecurity) anyway about 5 years ago i had some breathing issues which ended up with me going the the A&E, once there they done a chest x-ray which was normal, they said i might have anxiety and told passed on the info to my doc. At that time i never knew really what anxiety was and thought it meant i was depressed, i said to my self "I don't have anxiety". I went to my doc soon after and he didn't really bother talking about the anxiety, instead he was talking about another problem i had at the time (this is really embarrassing, i used to wet the bed right up til i was 14-15 :( and that was what he wanted to talk to me about rather than the anxiety)
So after the visit to the doc I went home and things with my breathing calmed down, I never really thought about it anymore and got on with my life. I got kicked out of school in year 9 (regret it now) and was out of school for a year, I got back into a school for people that have been expelled in year 10. At that school i started getting panic attacks walking home (difficult breathing, heart racing ect) and the feeling of running kicked in and i ran home. I was quite happy at the time tho, soon after that in the summer of 07 i meet a really nice girl :D i started seeing her and i was really happy. around the end of 08 she feel pregnant, me and her wanted to keep it but her mum made her get it aborted :( so she ended up doing it. I couldn't even go with her to the clinic because her mum thought i never even knew. I think that kicked off my bad anxiety, ever since that day i started getting these feelings most days.
Of course the abortion started causing problems in our relationship and at the beginning of 09 we broke up, we got back together two weeks later for a couple of months but yet again it didn't work out :( so that was our last time together. A week later i found out she was with another guy which really messed with my head. I put on a brave face with my mates but every night i got home i cried my eyes out. Ever since then these physical symptoms became worse and worse and was present 24/7. Breathing problems, muscle twitching, heart flutters, eye issues, you name it i had it. Once again i went to A&E thinking i had a serious illness, this time they done an ECG then a chest x-ray and found nothing wrong with me, so then they done blood tests which were also fine. they then let me go home telling me to see my doc. A week later i went to see my doc (this was a new doc by the way) I told her about my issues and other stuff and basically she told me to deal with it and relax. These feeling still have not gone all together and now i worry about my health 24/7 every day thinking i have a serious illness, brain tumor, ALS, MS, Lung Cancer ect ect.
Sorry about the length of the post lol i just wanted to tell someone my full story and maybe someone could reply advising me on what to do next or maybe tell me there story, i would love to hear anyone with similar problems or just to hear from anyone lol just to know I am not alone.
Thanks for reading. Marc
Well I am 18 and have had anxiety most my life but it was on and off never really had any physical symptoms with it until recently. My mum passed away with breast cancer when i was 2 years old ( i don't really have any memory of her) my dad raised me and my brother and sister from that age by him self. I have always had problems trusting girls in relationships ect. (maybe my own insecurity) anyway about 5 years ago i had some breathing issues which ended up with me going the the A&E, once there they done a chest x-ray which was normal, they said i might have anxiety and told passed on the info to my doc. At that time i never knew really what anxiety was and thought it meant i was depressed, i said to my self "I don't have anxiety". I went to my doc soon after and he didn't really bother talking about the anxiety, instead he was talking about another problem i had at the time (this is really embarrassing, i used to wet the bed right up til i was 14-15 :( and that was what he wanted to talk to me about rather than the anxiety)
So after the visit to the doc I went home and things with my breathing calmed down, I never really thought about it anymore and got on with my life. I got kicked out of school in year 9 (regret it now) and was out of school for a year, I got back into a school for people that have been expelled in year 10. At that school i started getting panic attacks walking home (difficult breathing, heart racing ect) and the feeling of running kicked in and i ran home. I was quite happy at the time tho, soon after that in the summer of 07 i meet a really nice girl :D i started seeing her and i was really happy. around the end of 08 she feel pregnant, me and her wanted to keep it but her mum made her get it aborted :( so she ended up doing it. I couldn't even go with her to the clinic because her mum thought i never even knew. I think that kicked off my bad anxiety, ever since that day i started getting these feelings most days.
Of course the abortion started causing problems in our relationship and at the beginning of 09 we broke up, we got back together two weeks later for a couple of months but yet again it didn't work out :( so that was our last time together. A week later i found out she was with another guy which really messed with my head. I put on a brave face with my mates but every night i got home i cried my eyes out. Ever since then these physical symptoms became worse and worse and was present 24/7. Breathing problems, muscle twitching, heart flutters, eye issues, you name it i had it. Once again i went to A&E thinking i had a serious illness, this time they done an ECG then a chest x-ray and found nothing wrong with me, so then they done blood tests which were also fine. they then let me go home telling me to see my doc. A week later i went to see my doc (this was a new doc by the way) I told her about my issues and other stuff and basically she told me to deal with it and relax. These feeling still have not gone all together and now i worry about my health 24/7 every day thinking i have a serious illness, brain tumor, ALS, MS, Lung Cancer ect ect.
Sorry about the length of the post lol i just wanted to tell someone my full story and maybe someone could reply advising me on what to do next or maybe tell me there story, i would love to hear anyone with similar problems or just to hear from anyone lol just to know I am not alone.
Thanks for reading. Marc