Gareth
05-10-05, 15:10
Today I've been thinking a lot about things I miss, the things I used to have before this anxiety started back in March. I thought I'd share them and I'd be happy to hear yours as well...
Thinking about "mundane" things and not anxiety
Sleeping through the night / waking up refreshed
Being able to work without procrastinating over everything
Making my wife laugh and smile
Feeling relaxed and chilled out
Being able to make decisions about little things without worrying myself to death over them
Smiling and laughing freely without the constant tinge of anxiety
Being asked how I am and saying "OK, thanks" and meaning it
There are probably more but those immediately spring to mind. I've been in Citalopram as a desperate measure (10mg for 4 weeks now) to no effect. I guess it is time to up the dose. I am 7 months into this nightmare now and in some ways I feel more resigned to things now... I care less about feeling bad, and I'm not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing - it feels a bit like I care less about myself. I have worked very very hard on getting better but it is still there and now I just sit and wait to feel better. Perhaps time is the only healer... perhaps this is just a wave to be sat on until it passes... I'm not going anywhere so I guess we'll find out at some point.
be well,
Gareth
*** I think, therefore I'm anxious ***
Thinking about "mundane" things and not anxiety
Sleeping through the night / waking up refreshed
Being able to work without procrastinating over everything
Making my wife laugh and smile
Feeling relaxed and chilled out
Being able to make decisions about little things without worrying myself to death over them
Smiling and laughing freely without the constant tinge of anxiety
Being asked how I am and saying "OK, thanks" and meaning it
There are probably more but those immediately spring to mind. I've been in Citalopram as a desperate measure (10mg for 4 weeks now) to no effect. I guess it is time to up the dose. I am 7 months into this nightmare now and in some ways I feel more resigned to things now... I care less about feeling bad, and I'm not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing - it feels a bit like I care less about myself. I have worked very very hard on getting better but it is still there and now I just sit and wait to feel better. Perhaps time is the only healer... perhaps this is just a wave to be sat on until it passes... I'm not going anywhere so I guess we'll find out at some point.
be well,
Gareth
*** I think, therefore I'm anxious ***