flumpkin
17-08-09, 10:12
Hi
This is my first post for a long time... I have suffered with Health Anxiety for past 6 years but was lucky enough to get a cbt referral a few years back and have been doing really well. I have a huge problem with the big C. Any symptom I ever seem to get leads me there and I have had many 'cancer scares' that have turned out to be something else.
My problem now is my throat. I have the usual lump in my throat feeling that I know is a common anxiety symptom - which is why I came and lurked back on here a few days ago as I wanted reassurance. My problem now though is that if I look at my throat I have visible lumps - about 3 or 4 clear skin coloured lumps on the dangly bit at the back of my throat - so cannot dismiss as anxiety. There is something real there. I also have sore throat (but never know if it is in my head).
I read an article on throat cancer and alcohol a few days back on BBC and think this has been the trigger. The problem is (and I feel so ashamed and stupid) I have been having a couple of glasses of wine most nights for the past few years. My own way of relaxing at end of day (with oh - who does not think this is a prob). I think the alcohol helps my anxiety and causes it. I have been af for last 4 days now and intend to keep this up. I wish I could turn back the clock - can't beieve i have been so stupid.
With my drinking and the lumps it seems that this time it really could be throat cancer - I have visible sign so not all in my head! Really, really scared. I have an appointment to see district nurse later today as can't get dr appointmnet. I am on holiday and supposed to be having good time with family but I want to curl up in a ball and cry. I am petrified it is something or that i will be referred for tests which means it could be something. I am ruining the 2 weeks holiday that I work all year for.
Has anyone had lumps on the dangly bit at back of throat and it been nothing? I am too scared and trying to be strong enough not to google.
Please please help.
And sorry for just coming on asking for help - will do a proper intro later but at the mo need reassurance.
This is my first post for a long time... I have suffered with Health Anxiety for past 6 years but was lucky enough to get a cbt referral a few years back and have been doing really well. I have a huge problem with the big C. Any symptom I ever seem to get leads me there and I have had many 'cancer scares' that have turned out to be something else.
My problem now is my throat. I have the usual lump in my throat feeling that I know is a common anxiety symptom - which is why I came and lurked back on here a few days ago as I wanted reassurance. My problem now though is that if I look at my throat I have visible lumps - about 3 or 4 clear skin coloured lumps on the dangly bit at the back of my throat - so cannot dismiss as anxiety. There is something real there. I also have sore throat (but never know if it is in my head).
I read an article on throat cancer and alcohol a few days back on BBC and think this has been the trigger. The problem is (and I feel so ashamed and stupid) I have been having a couple of glasses of wine most nights for the past few years. My own way of relaxing at end of day (with oh - who does not think this is a prob). I think the alcohol helps my anxiety and causes it. I have been af for last 4 days now and intend to keep this up. I wish I could turn back the clock - can't beieve i have been so stupid.
With my drinking and the lumps it seems that this time it really could be throat cancer - I have visible sign so not all in my head! Really, really scared. I have an appointment to see district nurse later today as can't get dr appointmnet. I am on holiday and supposed to be having good time with family but I want to curl up in a ball and cry. I am petrified it is something or that i will be referred for tests which means it could be something. I am ruining the 2 weeks holiday that I work all year for.
Has anyone had lumps on the dangly bit at back of throat and it been nothing? I am too scared and trying to be strong enough not to google.
Please please help.
And sorry for just coming on asking for help - will do a proper intro later but at the mo need reassurance.