Starlet_24
07-10-05, 05:48
Hello all from the States....Missouri to be exact:)
I am a 24 year old woman who has struggled with panic disorder since
I was 14-15 though I had no idea what it was until I was about 16/17.
Anyways, I thought I had beat Panic ----my last relapse was 1 and half a ago where it was your normal symptoms. Ok, this is the thing.
I have been under INTENSE stress, loss of job----roommate getting fired as well----I had to move to new apartment----no money----many family problems etc. etc. Well anyways about 3 weeks ago in the midst of all this stress, I became so fearful that I was going to go insane----this fear overtook me and right before my mother's eyes----I had a severe panic attack one of which I had never before. Normally, my fear is dying but this was a fear of going insane. Anyways, it took 2 days to recover because I felt sooooo spacey and fake and still uneasy. I was afraid this might end up in another panic deal which can last for Lord knows how long. Anyways, I have been experiencing TERRIBLE attacks in and out all day where I am petrified that I am going insane or am severely mentally disturbed. Earlier this evening I became so sick and panicked while reading a post by someone else that intense anxiety and fears are a sign of schizophrenia. I almost felt like passing out. I am so afraid that I truly might be losing it because all I can think about is going insane and not being able to care for myself. This has been intense over the past week or so to the point where I cannot hardly function. I thought I had this thing licked but it's back!!!!!! Seems everytime it comes back it comes back with new fears and worse symptoms. For instance, I normally have terrible skipped and racing heartbeats and sweating and tingling whereas now I have all of those plus nausea----loss of appetite ( I have lost several pounds over the last couple of weeks) dizziness and choking feelings.
My question I have always held irrational fears like diseases, death, God hating me, and so forth but is it normal to be so panicked by the idea od going insane? I literally go to b ed and wake up feeling intense dread as if this might be the day where I am hauled away to a nut ward. This is the most terrifying experience and I start a new job on Monday and am so worried that I will not be able to handle all this. Please someone tell me what could be going on!
Starlet_24
I am a 24 year old woman who has struggled with panic disorder since
I was 14-15 though I had no idea what it was until I was about 16/17.
Anyways, I thought I had beat Panic ----my last relapse was 1 and half a ago where it was your normal symptoms. Ok, this is the thing.
I have been under INTENSE stress, loss of job----roommate getting fired as well----I had to move to new apartment----no money----many family problems etc. etc. Well anyways about 3 weeks ago in the midst of all this stress, I became so fearful that I was going to go insane----this fear overtook me and right before my mother's eyes----I had a severe panic attack one of which I had never before. Normally, my fear is dying but this was a fear of going insane. Anyways, it took 2 days to recover because I felt sooooo spacey and fake and still uneasy. I was afraid this might end up in another panic deal which can last for Lord knows how long. Anyways, I have been experiencing TERRIBLE attacks in and out all day where I am petrified that I am going insane or am severely mentally disturbed. Earlier this evening I became so sick and panicked while reading a post by someone else that intense anxiety and fears are a sign of schizophrenia. I almost felt like passing out. I am so afraid that I truly might be losing it because all I can think about is going insane and not being able to care for myself. This has been intense over the past week or so to the point where I cannot hardly function. I thought I had this thing licked but it's back!!!!!! Seems everytime it comes back it comes back with new fears and worse symptoms. For instance, I normally have terrible skipped and racing heartbeats and sweating and tingling whereas now I have all of those plus nausea----loss of appetite ( I have lost several pounds over the last couple of weeks) dizziness and choking feelings.
My question I have always held irrational fears like diseases, death, God hating me, and so forth but is it normal to be so panicked by the idea od going insane? I literally go to b ed and wake up feeling intense dread as if this might be the day where I am hauled away to a nut ward. This is the most terrifying experience and I start a new job on Monday and am so worried that I will not be able to handle all this. Please someone tell me what could be going on!
Starlet_24