amu
19-08-09, 15:52
I entered into a detailed argument with someone who has cancer regarding the impact of what we eat on cancer. (because i hate those fake doctors who claim cancer can be cured by being on a raw diet or cutting out dairy from our diet and underpin their argument with false data - as my Dad died of cancer this fake info to sell their book stuff makes me angry.)
Anyway we argued over a certain issue in this theme and being a statistician I went further and further until I proved my point, to which he just replied thanks this is interesting.
And as he did not argue back I was overcome with immense guilt:
- why am I trying to "defeat" someone who has cancer in a cancer-related subject?
- why on Earth do I enter in an argument in a cancer-related subject at all, since I don't even have cancer and no one in my family currently has cancer?
- why do I know that much about cancer at all? And why do I research cancer? I am not a doctor, I should never ever again pretend I know anything about cancer.
I hate myself. Do you think I do all this because of my anxiety??? I am a horrible person.
Anyway we argued over a certain issue in this theme and being a statistician I went further and further until I proved my point, to which he just replied thanks this is interesting.
And as he did not argue back I was overcome with immense guilt:
- why am I trying to "defeat" someone who has cancer in a cancer-related subject?
- why on Earth do I enter in an argument in a cancer-related subject at all, since I don't even have cancer and no one in my family currently has cancer?
- why do I know that much about cancer at all? And why do I research cancer? I am not a doctor, I should never ever again pretend I know anything about cancer.
I hate myself. Do you think I do all this because of my anxiety??? I am a horrible person.