sMINT
20-08-09, 20:34
I have gone from 100% up for it to this week having loads of un nice thoughts about going. I think its down to the bad week I have had, Last week I had a great week and to be knocked back like this may be the cause.
I feel sick everytime I think about going away at the moment. Especailly becuase I already put off going last year and had to cancel everything. I cant do that again, I think my parents would properly loose faith in me if I did that, They werent happy last time (They dont understand my condition with panic and anxiety at all, Have tried talking to them about it).
2 days this week I have awoken from sleep feeling really sick, sweating, and pains in my chest. Now Im thinking, what if I get like this when I am away? I couldnt cope!
Also I had an information pack today from my Uni, included in a part of this pack was advice telling me to get vaccinated against Meninjitus (Spelling?). I am bad enough when it comes to having a blood test, but to be vaccinated with something especially after an incident in school after TB injections where I almost fainted (worst I have ever felt & closest I have ever come to fainting) I dont think I can go through that again. I start panicking thinking 'they have injected me with some chemical/drug' I dont like that at all. I cant take medication.
This has really put me off, I neevr heard of having to get vaccinated before going to uni untill this. Have any of you had to have it? What if I dont have it done?
I really dont know where my head is at the moment with it all. Im so confused. Deep down I really want to go, New friends, No more negative living in this house, A new start. But theres still the buts and ifs :weep:
I feel sick everytime I think about going away at the moment. Especailly becuase I already put off going last year and had to cancel everything. I cant do that again, I think my parents would properly loose faith in me if I did that, They werent happy last time (They dont understand my condition with panic and anxiety at all, Have tried talking to them about it).
2 days this week I have awoken from sleep feeling really sick, sweating, and pains in my chest. Now Im thinking, what if I get like this when I am away? I couldnt cope!
Also I had an information pack today from my Uni, included in a part of this pack was advice telling me to get vaccinated against Meninjitus (Spelling?). I am bad enough when it comes to having a blood test, but to be vaccinated with something especially after an incident in school after TB injections where I almost fainted (worst I have ever felt & closest I have ever come to fainting) I dont think I can go through that again. I start panicking thinking 'they have injected me with some chemical/drug' I dont like that at all. I cant take medication.
This has really put me off, I neevr heard of having to get vaccinated before going to uni untill this. Have any of you had to have it? What if I dont have it done?
I really dont know where my head is at the moment with it all. Im so confused. Deep down I really want to go, New friends, No more negative living in this house, A new start. But theres still the buts and ifs :weep: