greenday1997
25-08-09, 01:34
firstly,
god damn it how are ya all?!?:bighug1: have missed you nutters :D
i been doing loads better anxiety is barely existant anymore, aside from
i still havent quite got there yet with doing the stuff i used to do i still
aviod things but hey gettin there
But now it seems im having a mid life crisis!!! lol :wacko: :wacko: :wacko:
i dont know if anyone else had had this in their life but i feel like my life
just lately is the waltzers at a funfair (yea i was never normal) but
seriously, memories feelings, everything is just spinning round my head
at wat seems like a fast rate, good memories, things i miss, where ive
gone in life - jesus it didnt go the way it was supposed to things were supposed to be diferent, and how has it gone so fast?!? :wacko:
i dont know who i can talk to about this but it hits me like waves now and again and i feel like im surfing on my life trying to work out why i feel like crying at the simplest things. i mean jesus where did this come from.
i believe with us things happen for a reason and our brain is teaching us alot but i dnno wat this lesson is about and how to seek the answer :shrug:
i miss both nans that died
i miss my past
i miss my best friend that moved away years ago
i miss having my young life in front of me
i miss school, even tho i messed up
i miss knowing i could do anything i wanted to set my future up even
though i didnt know what i wanted to do
i miss my dog, christ i loved that dog and it makes me wanna cry when
i think about her
i went into town for the first time in months today overcome the fear,
that used to be my life i wdnt give it a second thawt i wud just do it
i used to love my job i used to love going out.....
my heads floating everywhere n i dnno how to steer it and what its
meaning i think if i could work it out i could get rid of this depressed
feeling!
love to all my fellow nutjobs
green :bighug1:
god damn it how are ya all?!?:bighug1: have missed you nutters :D
i been doing loads better anxiety is barely existant anymore, aside from
i still havent quite got there yet with doing the stuff i used to do i still
aviod things but hey gettin there
But now it seems im having a mid life crisis!!! lol :wacko: :wacko: :wacko:
i dont know if anyone else had had this in their life but i feel like my life
just lately is the waltzers at a funfair (yea i was never normal) but
seriously, memories feelings, everything is just spinning round my head
at wat seems like a fast rate, good memories, things i miss, where ive
gone in life - jesus it didnt go the way it was supposed to things were supposed to be diferent, and how has it gone so fast?!? :wacko:
i dont know who i can talk to about this but it hits me like waves now and again and i feel like im surfing on my life trying to work out why i feel like crying at the simplest things. i mean jesus where did this come from.
i believe with us things happen for a reason and our brain is teaching us alot but i dnno wat this lesson is about and how to seek the answer :shrug:
i miss both nans that died
i miss my past
i miss my best friend that moved away years ago
i miss having my young life in front of me
i miss school, even tho i messed up
i miss knowing i could do anything i wanted to set my future up even
though i didnt know what i wanted to do
i miss my dog, christ i loved that dog and it makes me wanna cry when
i think about her
i went into town for the first time in months today overcome the fear,
that used to be my life i wdnt give it a second thawt i wud just do it
i used to love my job i used to love going out.....
my heads floating everywhere n i dnno how to steer it and what its
meaning i think if i could work it out i could get rid of this depressed
feeling!
love to all my fellow nutjobs
green :bighug1: