Feel Weird and Confused

[Matt89]

So it seems my panic attacks have stopped, touch wood, ..it's been over 2 weeks since I last had one but I've been left with this weird feeling of "not being real".

I remember it came on during a really bad panic attack one night (about a month or two ago, and it's been on and off since.

I keep questioning my existence, my whole life, has everything I've ever done a dream? etc.. really weird things, that I don't have a clue why I'm thinking about. Am I alive or still dreaming?

My memory is also really bad, it's really hard say, to recall what I did yesterday. :(

I don't know what's happening to me, it also feels like I can't be bothered to do anything..

I'm also getting some really bizarre dreams, like every night this week.

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[sophieunderscore]

I feel like this to, I've just done a post on it actually. Apparently it comes along with being anxious and stuff :)

I've looked at a few sites and they suggest CBT. If you search for "depersonalization" it comes up with some sites.

[Meg]

Confused? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4187)

D/Personalisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2304)
derealisation/depersonlisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2512)
Hi new member mom w/ panic and dp/dr (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=1239)
Disassociation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2732)
when will this feeling leave? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2971)
FEELING SPACED! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4079)
?Derealisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4682)
My mind and depersonalisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5345)
Derealization (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5523)
Surreal, Unreal, Spaced-Out, Derealization etc (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5569)
Weird Feelings in Mind (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5622)


Meg
www.anxietymanagementltd.com

Your anxiety is the human representation of the pictures that you paint using your many vivid colours of revolving and reoccurring thoughts.
How big is your gallery ?

[suzuki]

Hiya Matt,
Your description of how your feeling is excellent. I've been there too and to some extent still am. I think it takes "time" for everything to calm down. Like you i was questioning my whole existence and life etc and "is it real" is it a dream". I also freaked myself out more thinking of being just "a chemical being" and got frightened of "myself" if you can understand that. Mine started like yours after some bad night panics which were made worse by medication that didn't suit . thats when i felt unreal for the first time i think. So it could have been trying that one tablet that brought it on. On a lighter note as time goes on it does get better , and i know its hard because we want a quick fix. Keep trying to divert yourself if you can . Sue x

[desperate]

Hi Matt,

I'm still like that too, I don't have attacks it is more a general state of unrealness sometimes...like things appar unreal and things.

First Anxiety...then panic attacks...now GAD and depression...now working on a better future!

[lara100]

Hi Matt,

Ive just been though a very bad experience and since then Ive had what I think is depersonalisation. I cant concentrate on anything and I cant remember what I did five minutes ago. I just feel like a 'core" with the rest of myself floating around it if that makes any sense! My vision is weird as well which I think is because of anxiety as well. Im sure you will feel better in time, I think its just our brains way of saying im tired of this im going to have a little rest for a few days!

I hope you are better soon

Lara x

[Jabz]

hey.
i have the same thing, especially with vision ti always feels like things are much duller and darker than they are and are just more depressing its almost like tunnel vision. also my eyes feel very tired i almost cant keep them open sometimes, but i know its because im concentrating on it. i also sometimes feel very unreal, as almost floating in the world, its a very hard thing to describe..its almost as if being in a movie, and watching yourself...its very unreal, and its been taking its time going away..=(

Stan

[Matt89]

This is messed up, it seems to be getting worse everyday.

Argh..It's so hard to describe it [V]

I just don't feel here at all. I just feel messed. It's like I don't know where I am or anything.

How the hell can you recover from this after you've gone this far :(

[chucklehound]

Hi Matt, I am sorry to hear that you are feeling so bad at the moment.


I get the feelings of not being here all the time and I so I can totally

understand what you are going through. I hope that you start to feel

better soon.

Take Care

Chucklehound

xxxxxxxx

[Sue K with 5]

Hi ya Matt

All your dreams and your feelings are all anxiety related, the bad memory comes from your head being so full of everything else anxiety related which does not allow you to think clearly, I have to ask what the dats is every day and I am only 37 !!

So dont worry, these symptoms are not due to anything suspicious they are all related to how you feel, once I looked in a mirror and actually convinced myself I was not me, I felt like I was staring at a completely differant person, I scared the ****** life out of myself and had to shake myself a few times and I then realised that what I saw was a person who was unhappy and was not the person I wanted to be!

Dont give up this does pass and it will get better once the anxiety subsides a little


scknight

[jon86]

defenatly the worst feeling, im 22 and coped it after my panic attack, i told the doctor my memory was all clogged so he gave me xanax where the side effects were far greater, i start tripping out daily, and have confused myself to a degree where i feel F*&$#ED, gonna c a therapist. i get weird flash backs, could b at home and my mind starts playing games on my, i start thinking that the beach is around i corner, i think im goin nuts...ill be out with friends and all the sudden trip out for a split second, however that second confuses me for hours till i can shake it off, i tried relaxing, lieing down and deep breathing at home, when no ones around, so they dnt think ive lost it. it kinda helps.

[HeatherMc]

This is a very interesting post, the sort that discusses the wierdest worries and frights that we have been having, I can totally relate to the mirror things I look at myself and think who is the sad frightended anxious person what is she doing and can she bring the old Heather back.

Heather

[mlondon]

Hi Matt

I am having exactly the same experience at the moment and have just posted about it. Sometimes I feel things are so unreal that if I touched someone I would discover they are not there. It is the scariest part of anxiety for me. However this feeling comes and goes, it does not last all the time no matter how scared I am that it will and sometimes I have great days. It has taken me a while to get to this point. I think the main thing to do which is incredibly hard and I don't do it all the time (for example I went home early from work yesterday because of the way I was feeling) is to continue as you normally would with life. Don't pay the feeling too much attention. I do think it is our brain being tired, I often feel it when I have been drinking as well. I am only 26 and do find it hard to say no to drinks when out socially but I think itmakes it worse and I am going to need to reduce drinking for a while. I also get wierd vision as well and totally lose motivation so it is reassuring to hear others experience the same thing.