sahara
30-08-09, 19:18
OK - I have suffered with health anxiety and OCD for a looooong time.
When I am really unlucky the 2 join forces and I end up worrying about a particular aspect of my health which turns into an obsession - in the sense that I cannot let go of it - whatever anyone says or does to help.
I am 11 weeks pregnant with my second and with my daughte I had to have an emeregency c-section.
I was looking into a natural birth after c-section and discovered that I am at risk of someting called placenta accreta - which is more likely cos I had a c-section 1st time round.
The risks are very low but I can't put it into perpsective. I think it has alot to do with the fact i lost my Mum in November and now nothing scares me more than leaving my daughter without her Mum cause I now know how awful it feels to be without your Mum.
I can feel it spiralling out of ocntrol and I wanted to prove to people I would fall apart when i got pregnant agian. I feel like a failure already
When I am really unlucky the 2 join forces and I end up worrying about a particular aspect of my health which turns into an obsession - in the sense that I cannot let go of it - whatever anyone says or does to help.
I am 11 weeks pregnant with my second and with my daughte I had to have an emeregency c-section.
I was looking into a natural birth after c-section and discovered that I am at risk of someting called placenta accreta - which is more likely cos I had a c-section 1st time round.
The risks are very low but I can't put it into perpsective. I think it has alot to do with the fact i lost my Mum in November and now nothing scares me more than leaving my daughter without her Mum cause I now know how awful it feels to be without your Mum.
I can feel it spiralling out of ocntrol and I wanted to prove to people I would fall apart when i got pregnant agian. I feel like a failure already