Josie
31-08-09, 11:24
Hi,
I hope you don't mind but I currently feel terrified and have nowhere else to turn.:weep:
I suffer with anxiety which is raging at the moment but it is something else that is terrifying me. I keep getting these terrifying experiences were I'm looking around at all the things which are familiar to me, but now they look like I'm seeing them for the first time!!! Have you ever looked at your reflection in the mirror for too long and then not recognised yourself, or said a word like 'spoon' over and over until it sounds unfamiliar? Its like that but with everything.
When I first started suffering with this 2 years ago I found a paragraph in 'Feeling Unreal' ( a depersonalisation disorder book) which states "..At times the most common, familiar objects can seem foreign, as if I'm looking at them for the first time...Take an american flag for instance. Its instantly recognizable...but if i look at it for more than a moment, its like I've forgotten ever seeing a flag before, even though I'm aware of what my 'normal' reaction should be."
I feel so alone and feel like I'm loosing my mind. I try to reassure myself and calm myself, but I just feel so terrified I don't know what else to do. I woke up last night and immediatley started to feel like this; it was like I'd almost forgotten where I was. I managed to calm myself down, but I just don't want to loose all sense of who I am. I also don't want to scare my bfriend as he's really stressed doing his masters at the moment and I don't want to add to his troubles. I have no one else as I have no parents.
Thanks for listening too me,
Joanne:shrug:
I hope you don't mind but I currently feel terrified and have nowhere else to turn.:weep:
I suffer with anxiety which is raging at the moment but it is something else that is terrifying me. I keep getting these terrifying experiences were I'm looking around at all the things which are familiar to me, but now they look like I'm seeing them for the first time!!! Have you ever looked at your reflection in the mirror for too long and then not recognised yourself, or said a word like 'spoon' over and over until it sounds unfamiliar? Its like that but with everything.
When I first started suffering with this 2 years ago I found a paragraph in 'Feeling Unreal' ( a depersonalisation disorder book) which states "..At times the most common, familiar objects can seem foreign, as if I'm looking at them for the first time...Take an american flag for instance. Its instantly recognizable...but if i look at it for more than a moment, its like I've forgotten ever seeing a flag before, even though I'm aware of what my 'normal' reaction should be."
I feel so alone and feel like I'm loosing my mind. I try to reassure myself and calm myself, but I just feel so terrified I don't know what else to do. I woke up last night and immediatley started to feel like this; it was like I'd almost forgotten where I was. I managed to calm myself down, but I just don't want to loose all sense of who I am. I also don't want to scare my bfriend as he's really stressed doing his masters at the moment and I don't want to add to his troubles. I have no one else as I have no parents.
Thanks for listening too me,
Joanne:shrug: