jue69
14-10-05, 15:06
Hi
Im a newbie here, have visited the site for a while as a visitor, but today have been told by my wonderful GP that my anxiety needs sorting i've come to chat with you guys. So i will tell you a bit about myself.
I'm 36 years old and a mother to 2 wonderfuld boys aged 12 and 9, i have the best husband you can ask for who is my rock when it comes to these health issues. My problems started after both my parents died young, one from cancer the other from heart disease. Our gp at the time was terrible and mis-diagnosed both of them. I will just point out he is now retired and not practicing.
A visit to the GP's now is one of dread, fear, panic, high BP, which by the way is normal to quite low at home. I will only go to the gp if really necessary. This happened about 3 months ago, when i woke up with palpitations. These lasted on and off for about a week, i didn't take much notice of them and they went away, then again out of the blue they started again, this in my head began to stir up trouble, so i did the unforgivable i looked on the internet. Well now in my eyes i had full blown heart disease, i wasn't gonna last the day and i was truly panicking. That night i had what i think was my first real panic attack, i shook, i was cold, my heart pounded along with the missing beats palpitations, there was whooshing in my ears, stars in front of my eyes, boy i had it all. My hubby who is fab decided enough was enough off to the doctors. My GP is great, she said i was the second lady that week to come in with these symptoms and they are rarely anything to worry about, she listened to my chest and said it sounded even and strong, but she would recommend an ecg and some bloods, which tested cholestrol, lipids, thyroid and all sorts. I saw the nurse who was also amazing, she performed the ecg and took the bloods from what i can only describe as a mad woman, i was so nervous, how could this ecg be ok with me panicking so much.
I got the dreaded phone call from the docs last week to say all is absolutely excellent, my heart is as fit as a fiddle, but i am showing signs of very mild anaemia. This was music to my ears, but yes i have health anxiety, so not for long. Onto the good old internet to search anaemia, which was good reading to start with, it can cause palpitations, so thats good, but then i read further and now in my black or white world (that means there is no grey area to me, you either have something life threatening or you have no symptoms at all) i have now got, stomach cancer, bowel cancer and all sorts of major illnesses. Again more panic attacks, not being able to cope. So off again to the doccies today, who was great, my bowel cancer symptoms are a case (and i apologize now for the toilet talk) of common piles. My anaemia is so mild its nearly non existent and i have got myself into an early grave for nothing AGAIN.
The reason i've joined here is, she has now recommended that if i cannot help my health anxiety she will refer me to a psychiatrist. My question is how do i help myself, my fears are real, at the time its all i can focus on, after i feel silly. My sister has been through the same things in life as me, sometimes worse, but she never thinks the way i do.
Help me guys, i wanna be normal.
Im a newbie here, have visited the site for a while as a visitor, but today have been told by my wonderful GP that my anxiety needs sorting i've come to chat with you guys. So i will tell you a bit about myself.
I'm 36 years old and a mother to 2 wonderfuld boys aged 12 and 9, i have the best husband you can ask for who is my rock when it comes to these health issues. My problems started after both my parents died young, one from cancer the other from heart disease. Our gp at the time was terrible and mis-diagnosed both of them. I will just point out he is now retired and not practicing.
A visit to the GP's now is one of dread, fear, panic, high BP, which by the way is normal to quite low at home. I will only go to the gp if really necessary. This happened about 3 months ago, when i woke up with palpitations. These lasted on and off for about a week, i didn't take much notice of them and they went away, then again out of the blue they started again, this in my head began to stir up trouble, so i did the unforgivable i looked on the internet. Well now in my eyes i had full blown heart disease, i wasn't gonna last the day and i was truly panicking. That night i had what i think was my first real panic attack, i shook, i was cold, my heart pounded along with the missing beats palpitations, there was whooshing in my ears, stars in front of my eyes, boy i had it all. My hubby who is fab decided enough was enough off to the doctors. My GP is great, she said i was the second lady that week to come in with these symptoms and they are rarely anything to worry about, she listened to my chest and said it sounded even and strong, but she would recommend an ecg and some bloods, which tested cholestrol, lipids, thyroid and all sorts. I saw the nurse who was also amazing, she performed the ecg and took the bloods from what i can only describe as a mad woman, i was so nervous, how could this ecg be ok with me panicking so much.
I got the dreaded phone call from the docs last week to say all is absolutely excellent, my heart is as fit as a fiddle, but i am showing signs of very mild anaemia. This was music to my ears, but yes i have health anxiety, so not for long. Onto the good old internet to search anaemia, which was good reading to start with, it can cause palpitations, so thats good, but then i read further and now in my black or white world (that means there is no grey area to me, you either have something life threatening or you have no symptoms at all) i have now got, stomach cancer, bowel cancer and all sorts of major illnesses. Again more panic attacks, not being able to cope. So off again to the doccies today, who was great, my bowel cancer symptoms are a case (and i apologize now for the toilet talk) of common piles. My anaemia is so mild its nearly non existent and i have got myself into an early grave for nothing AGAIN.
The reason i've joined here is, she has now recommended that if i cannot help my health anxiety she will refer me to a psychiatrist. My question is how do i help myself, my fears are real, at the time its all i can focus on, after i feel silly. My sister has been through the same things in life as me, sometimes worse, but she never thinks the way i do.
Help me guys, i wanna be normal.