tygwyn
16-10-05, 08:25
Hi Guys
God this recovery business is flamin rocky isn't it?!! I know I am on the right road (keep telling myself!) but the ups and downs are pretty difficult some days aren't they?!
I was expecting to have a bit of a rocky day yesterday as my nerves took a bit of a bashing the day before after hearing the sad news about my friend passing away. The day wasn't too bad (still went out and did lots of things) but as the day went on I could feel myself dwelling on my illness more and more until I had really brought myself down. I went to bed feeling pretty low and anxious (haven't done that for a while) and almost lost faith in my ability to fully recover.
This morning I don't feel so much 'anxious' as annoyed at myself for stepping backwards and dragging myself down. I know this is all part of the road to recovery and I need to get back to 'accepting' and remain positive but god it can be so draining can't it!! I'm actually laughing at myself as I type this now cos I sound like such a drama queen!! LOL.
Thats it - I'm gonna kick myself up the arse now and go to a carboot. Later we're going out for a picnic as a family on our bikes (got a pull along trolley for our 5 year old which is fab!).
See how up and down my moods are - started the topic feeling really low and finish it feeling ok!! Good god someone shape me up!! LOL
Cheers for reading!
Rach xxxx
"True acceptance means 'facing and relaxing' - it is submission" (Claire Weekes)
God this recovery business is flamin rocky isn't it?!! I know I am on the right road (keep telling myself!) but the ups and downs are pretty difficult some days aren't they?!
I was expecting to have a bit of a rocky day yesterday as my nerves took a bit of a bashing the day before after hearing the sad news about my friend passing away. The day wasn't too bad (still went out and did lots of things) but as the day went on I could feel myself dwelling on my illness more and more until I had really brought myself down. I went to bed feeling pretty low and anxious (haven't done that for a while) and almost lost faith in my ability to fully recover.
This morning I don't feel so much 'anxious' as annoyed at myself for stepping backwards and dragging myself down. I know this is all part of the road to recovery and I need to get back to 'accepting' and remain positive but god it can be so draining can't it!! I'm actually laughing at myself as I type this now cos I sound like such a drama queen!! LOL.
Thats it - I'm gonna kick myself up the arse now and go to a carboot. Later we're going out for a picnic as a family on our bikes (got a pull along trolley for our 5 year old which is fab!).
See how up and down my moods are - started the topic feeling really low and finish it feeling ok!! Good god someone shape me up!! LOL
Cheers for reading!
Rach xxxx
"True acceptance means 'facing and relaxing' - it is submission" (Claire Weekes)