nineteen
02-09-09, 16:06
im havin a bit of a bad few days with the whole anxiety thing....ive been trying to tell my self to 'get on with it' kinda thing n trying to keep my mind off it, i was able to go into town, go 2 the supermarket, was at the cinema last nite, i felt the anxiety bcause ov being out n all that, but managed to keep myself calm, i work in a supermarket, and i get sooo anxious but i just try to keep talking to people and this usually works...
but, now that its the end of the summer ( i only started feeling like this again last month, i stoped having these a few years back and nw they have returned) i knw i have to start back college on monday, and im sick to my stomach with worry! im so scared that ile have a panic attack in class or have to run out and embarrass myself that its all i can think about, it used 2 b work was all i worried about but i think im gettin over that a little. maybe because i ave college to worry about more now? i feel silly sometimes because wen i look around me other people dont have a care in the world, n y am i not like that any more? its constant panic about having a panic attack and it is just a viscious circle that i dont know how to break, i dont want med or anything like that im too scared to take it, and to be able to get any therapy or anything my doc said i have to have had panic and anxiety for at least 6months...why? why should anyone have to suffer that long before they can get professional help?
anyway, does anyone else panic about having a panic attack? its the 1st thing i fink about wen i wake up, and the last thing before i manage 2 get to sleep, today i cleaned the house to take my mind off it, it worked for a while but the thoughts just came back, now i feel sick and am scared of having an attack in work 2nite!
AAAAHHHHHH its so awful :( x
but, now that its the end of the summer ( i only started feeling like this again last month, i stoped having these a few years back and nw they have returned) i knw i have to start back college on monday, and im sick to my stomach with worry! im so scared that ile have a panic attack in class or have to run out and embarrass myself that its all i can think about, it used 2 b work was all i worried about but i think im gettin over that a little. maybe because i ave college to worry about more now? i feel silly sometimes because wen i look around me other people dont have a care in the world, n y am i not like that any more? its constant panic about having a panic attack and it is just a viscious circle that i dont know how to break, i dont want med or anything like that im too scared to take it, and to be able to get any therapy or anything my doc said i have to have had panic and anxiety for at least 6months...why? why should anyone have to suffer that long before they can get professional help?
anyway, does anyone else panic about having a panic attack? its the 1st thing i fink about wen i wake up, and the last thing before i manage 2 get to sleep, today i cleaned the house to take my mind off it, it worked for a while but the thoughts just came back, now i feel sick and am scared of having an attack in work 2nite!
AAAAHHHHHH its so awful :( x