panicagain
02-09-09, 17:16
I tried, i knew i shouldn't have, i knew it was a bad idea!!!!!
IT WAS A BAD IDEA!!! Now i know i have it Really! Ovarian cancer:weep:
I know the symptoms now and i have them, the only thing it didn't say is if the symptoms stay or if they can come and go cuz i don't have the bloating right now, i don't have the pain all the time but i can't eat, i'm sick all the time and i'm having irregular bleeding.
I only looked on one website, i didn't keep looking. My hubby told me that googling on .com websites were worse than .org or .gov so i looked at .org and found out that i have it so now how do i plan my funeral?
My dad is not well and i don't know whether to tell him or not, he wouldn't handle it well. I'm not sure what to tell my girls, my 5yr old wont really understand but she has heard of death but doesn't ever expect it to happen to me,,,,, and i know my hubby wont believe me,,,he'll just get mad that i googled and tell me "I TOLD YOU SO" but he will believe me when i get home from the dr on friday:weep:
At least i'm not in denial, some people go through that,,,i just have intense fear which is probably worse. Somes people say its not a death sentence but the statistics are Not good, 1 in 67 women will get it and 15,000 out of 30,000 will die, thats at least half WILL die.
Not sure how to keep sane through all this, my anxiety can't handle it:weep:
IT WAS A BAD IDEA!!! Now i know i have it Really! Ovarian cancer:weep:
I know the symptoms now and i have them, the only thing it didn't say is if the symptoms stay or if they can come and go cuz i don't have the bloating right now, i don't have the pain all the time but i can't eat, i'm sick all the time and i'm having irregular bleeding.
I only looked on one website, i didn't keep looking. My hubby told me that googling on .com websites were worse than .org or .gov so i looked at .org and found out that i have it so now how do i plan my funeral?
My dad is not well and i don't know whether to tell him or not, he wouldn't handle it well. I'm not sure what to tell my girls, my 5yr old wont really understand but she has heard of death but doesn't ever expect it to happen to me,,,,, and i know my hubby wont believe me,,,he'll just get mad that i googled and tell me "I TOLD YOU SO" but he will believe me when i get home from the dr on friday:weep:
At least i'm not in denial, some people go through that,,,i just have intense fear which is probably worse. Somes people say its not a death sentence but the statistics are Not good, 1 in 67 women will get it and 15,000 out of 30,000 will die, thats at least half WILL die.
Not sure how to keep sane through all this, my anxiety can't handle it:weep: