alicat88
05-09-09, 17:00
Hi, this is my 1st post, I'm 21 and have been suffering from panic disorder for about 3 years.
At the minute I'm feeling constantly depressed. I'm currently on citalopram 20mg, but every day is the same. I feel so unreal at times it really alarms me. It's like I just can't "lift" myself out of this mood every day. Even when I am doing things (like horse riding) that are my passion, it's like I don't even care anymore.
I've went really backwards in terms of socialising. I just hate the thought of it now, not even due to the panic attacks (which are awful) but just this sense of what's the point?
Anyway, tonight is my friend's 21st birthday party. Not a massive one, friends and maybe a couple of people I don't know very well. The thing is, and I feel TERRIBLE for saying this, I just plain don't want to go. I'm afraid of dragging everyone's mood down, or just not having anything to talk about. Or even burting into tears or something.
Can anyone help? I've been listening to music all day to try and get me in the mood, but so far :(
At the minute I'm feeling constantly depressed. I'm currently on citalopram 20mg, but every day is the same. I feel so unreal at times it really alarms me. It's like I just can't "lift" myself out of this mood every day. Even when I am doing things (like horse riding) that are my passion, it's like I don't even care anymore.
I've went really backwards in terms of socialising. I just hate the thought of it now, not even due to the panic attacks (which are awful) but just this sense of what's the point?
Anyway, tonight is my friend's 21st birthday party. Not a massive one, friends and maybe a couple of people I don't know very well. The thing is, and I feel TERRIBLE for saying this, I just plain don't want to go. I'm afraid of dragging everyone's mood down, or just not having anything to talk about. Or even burting into tears or something.
Can anyone help? I've been listening to music all day to try and get me in the mood, but so far :(