Ireni
07-09-09, 03:48
One word: terrifying. As a child I spent a lot of time in hospitals because of bad croup and I was never worried, although, obviously, I hated being there because of boredom and I wanted to go home. Over the past year, I have had two trips to the hospital (once for me, the other with my mum) and I can honestly say that my fear of hospitals has got a lot worse. Do you think it could have anything to do with my experiences as a child? I now have health anxiety. When I stayed overnight a while ago I felt worse at night, couldn't breathe and needed to sit up in bed. This was exactly what happened when I had croup - worse at night, out of breath, worse when you lie down. Is it just a coincidence?
In my most recent trip, I wasn't even ill and my mum had nothing life-threatening, but I was convinced I was about to collapse, faint, die, have a fit. So much so that the nurse thought I was the one with the illness. :blush: :roflmao: I kept feeling extreme claustrophobia, as though I had to get out of the building. I just had to get out of there.
You have no choice over admission into hospital and so I am now petrified in case I'm ill in the future and need to go there myself. I wouldn't cope. I think I'd rather die of whatever's wrong than enter a hospital again. This has had the affect of making my HA (which I've been struggling for years to overcome) a great deal worse. What on earth can I do about this?
In my most recent trip, I wasn't even ill and my mum had nothing life-threatening, but I was convinced I was about to collapse, faint, die, have a fit. So much so that the nurse thought I was the one with the illness. :blush: :roflmao: I kept feeling extreme claustrophobia, as though I had to get out of the building. I just had to get out of there.
You have no choice over admission into hospital and so I am now petrified in case I'm ill in the future and need to go there myself. I wouldn't cope. I think I'd rather die of whatever's wrong than enter a hospital again. This has had the affect of making my HA (which I've been struggling for years to overcome) a great deal worse. What on earth can I do about this?