luke1982
07-09-09, 17:38
Made a post a day or two ago got limited replys really but im going out of my mind i suffer from paranoid schizophrenia and severe h.a
I really cant stop thinking. I have regular visits from a cpn but that does nothing to help regular meetings with a psychiatric doctor constant bombardment of pills. I just cant turn off my, brain has chatter all the time its making me ill on top of this i cant stop prodding at glands particularly the ones in my groin are they normal to be able to be felt there without infection? They are tiny like pea sized and only hurt now because iv prodded them so much...it started because I had a tight feeling in the crease of my leg iv searched on google about the tightness there and to be honest cant find anything. I worry about having cancer on a daily basis I annoy the hell out of my girlfriend and family because im constantly obsessed with the idea of being ill I really see no way out.
Physically I feel fine i feel fit and healthy, I just cant stop prodding at myself and dont know how to stop!
Its making my life a misery iv recently given up my job and dont leave the house out of fear that something bad is going to happen.
I even had a fear of looking up at the sky how stupids that!
Went to the doctors the other day because I was so obsessed with my glands, they didnt even want to check them said if it wasnt sore or burning sensation or particularly big there was no point.
So guess what I went home thought about it, no obsessed about it, and guess what they started feeling burny and sore which scared me. It was only after they said thats what they would feel like if there was something wrong that i felt it.
I really am at a loose end and want it all to stop is there anyone here that can relate in anyway and shed some light on some of the stuff iv said im making myself feel sick with worry and annoying the people i care about most with my constant goings on.
I know its a long post but really felt the need to get it down on paper so to speak to get it all out, just want someone to tell me its ok and that its normal to feel things where I am or something I dunno
Please help:weep:
I really cant stop thinking. I have regular visits from a cpn but that does nothing to help regular meetings with a psychiatric doctor constant bombardment of pills. I just cant turn off my, brain has chatter all the time its making me ill on top of this i cant stop prodding at glands particularly the ones in my groin are they normal to be able to be felt there without infection? They are tiny like pea sized and only hurt now because iv prodded them so much...it started because I had a tight feeling in the crease of my leg iv searched on google about the tightness there and to be honest cant find anything. I worry about having cancer on a daily basis I annoy the hell out of my girlfriend and family because im constantly obsessed with the idea of being ill I really see no way out.
Physically I feel fine i feel fit and healthy, I just cant stop prodding at myself and dont know how to stop!
Its making my life a misery iv recently given up my job and dont leave the house out of fear that something bad is going to happen.
I even had a fear of looking up at the sky how stupids that!
Went to the doctors the other day because I was so obsessed with my glands, they didnt even want to check them said if it wasnt sore or burning sensation or particularly big there was no point.
So guess what I went home thought about it, no obsessed about it, and guess what they started feeling burny and sore which scared me. It was only after they said thats what they would feel like if there was something wrong that i felt it.
I really am at a loose end and want it all to stop is there anyone here that can relate in anyway and shed some light on some of the stuff iv said im making myself feel sick with worry and annoying the people i care about most with my constant goings on.
I know its a long post but really felt the need to get it down on paper so to speak to get it all out, just want someone to tell me its ok and that its normal to feel things where I am or something I dunno
Please help:weep: