Jimbo1189
08-09-09, 11:00
Hello firstly i would like to say im new to this site and thank you for anyone who is reading this :) im 19 and a male who lives in the UK.
Recently ive been having fears of illness and more so of sudden death. It all started a 5 weeks ago when i went to the doctors with enlarged lymph nodes on my chest the doctor assured me it was an infection because of my headaches, abdominal pains. Since that first doctor ive seen 3 more in 3 weeks because i still have the enlarged lymph nodes, finally the last doctor i saw sent me for blood tests and white blood cell counts to rule out lymphoma, everything came back clear so she said it was just because of the infection and they would go down. In between going to all the doctors i was looking up symptoms online in books anything i could get my hands on and they were all saying diseases that are really scaring me like cancer or heart problems. Lately ive been feeling detached from reality and keep getting headaches along with shaking that go away if im distracted. I find myself constantly scanning myself and the internet because of a fear of illness and ultimatly death. I cant focus on anything im finding it hard to talk to family or friends, they notice im not myself and keep asking me whats wrong but if i tell them im worried they may call me ridiculous, its becoming a real problem. A few nights ago on the tv i saw something about adult sudden death syndrome and now im convinced this will affect me, i have a really strong feeling of impending doom when im up and about and everything seems unreal. The thing is i know that this isnt my normal self but i cant let go of it now im constantly over analyzing and really scared, i want to go back to the way i was before but it seems so out of reach. For the last few weeks ive just been in and out of my bed, in a way just waiting for something bad to happen. Ive always been and anxious and worrier type of person but never to this extent where im having panic attacks and these feelings and scared of sleeping. Ive had this a for a quite a short time and its already ruining my life, i truly sympathize with people who have had feelings like this for very long periods. Does this sound like and anxiety disorder of any sort?
Thanks for reading and replies would be appreciated :)
Recently ive been having fears of illness and more so of sudden death. It all started a 5 weeks ago when i went to the doctors with enlarged lymph nodes on my chest the doctor assured me it was an infection because of my headaches, abdominal pains. Since that first doctor ive seen 3 more in 3 weeks because i still have the enlarged lymph nodes, finally the last doctor i saw sent me for blood tests and white blood cell counts to rule out lymphoma, everything came back clear so she said it was just because of the infection and they would go down. In between going to all the doctors i was looking up symptoms online in books anything i could get my hands on and they were all saying diseases that are really scaring me like cancer or heart problems. Lately ive been feeling detached from reality and keep getting headaches along with shaking that go away if im distracted. I find myself constantly scanning myself and the internet because of a fear of illness and ultimatly death. I cant focus on anything im finding it hard to talk to family or friends, they notice im not myself and keep asking me whats wrong but if i tell them im worried they may call me ridiculous, its becoming a real problem. A few nights ago on the tv i saw something about adult sudden death syndrome and now im convinced this will affect me, i have a really strong feeling of impending doom when im up and about and everything seems unreal. The thing is i know that this isnt my normal self but i cant let go of it now im constantly over analyzing and really scared, i want to go back to the way i was before but it seems so out of reach. For the last few weeks ive just been in and out of my bed, in a way just waiting for something bad to happen. Ive always been and anxious and worrier type of person but never to this extent where im having panic attacks and these feelings and scared of sleeping. Ive had this a for a quite a short time and its already ruining my life, i truly sympathize with people who have had feelings like this for very long periods. Does this sound like and anxiety disorder of any sort?
Thanks for reading and replies would be appreciated :)