khirstie71
08-09-09, 12:07
Hello,
Not posted for a while but felt a need today, feel a right wreck, i have been suffering from panic attacks since june now, im on 20mg citalopram, propanolol and i have diazapan for emergencies, i have been off work for the last 5 weeks, first thing in the morning i feel okish but as the day weat=rs on i feel myself getting worse and worse, i cant summon up any enthusiasm for anything, every pain i have i think this is it im going to die, i have been getting pins and needles all over the place, every day i diagnose myself with some different fatal illness, yesterday i could feel my heart beating in my stomach when lying down, so convinced myself i had an anuyrism, i have had blood works, ecg's and chest xray over the months but i still cant convince myself that this is all down to anxciety, im at the doctors every week waning reassurance, it just wont sink in, i see a councellor now and feel great when i come out from seeing her, then i get a pain in my chest or arm or pins and needles somewhere and think oh s**t im really not ok, im thinking constantly all day and worrying i try and think of good things but i cant stay focused for very long, i feel emotionally drained constantly, i hate being like this, i just want to be my normal self again, im 38 and start uni in 2 weeks to do my nurse training, i was so excited about it a few months back but now am really dreading it, also going to new york in 3 weeks with friends but am scared stiff im gonna be a liability! just dunno how to cope with this anymore, so sorry for the long post just needed to get things off my chest !!!
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Not posted for a while but felt a need today, feel a right wreck, i have been suffering from panic attacks since june now, im on 20mg citalopram, propanolol and i have diazapan for emergencies, i have been off work for the last 5 weeks, first thing in the morning i feel okish but as the day weat=rs on i feel myself getting worse and worse, i cant summon up any enthusiasm for anything, every pain i have i think this is it im going to die, i have been getting pins and needles all over the place, every day i diagnose myself with some different fatal illness, yesterday i could feel my heart beating in my stomach when lying down, so convinced myself i had an anuyrism, i have had blood works, ecg's and chest xray over the months but i still cant convince myself that this is all down to anxciety, im at the doctors every week waning reassurance, it just wont sink in, i see a councellor now and feel great when i come out from seeing her, then i get a pain in my chest or arm or pins and needles somewhere and think oh s**t im really not ok, im thinking constantly all day and worrying i try and think of good things but i cant stay focused for very long, i feel emotionally drained constantly, i hate being like this, i just want to be my normal self again, im 38 and start uni in 2 weeks to do my nurse training, i was so excited about it a few months back but now am really dreading it, also going to new york in 3 weeks with friends but am scared stiff im gonna be a liability! just dunno how to cope with this anymore, so sorry for the long post just needed to get things off my chest !!!
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