desperate
20-10-05, 11:12
hi guys,
i had a rubbish night last night the worst in ages to be honest.
i felt ill during lost and so went to bed, i was just aware that my chest felt 'empty' if that makes any sense? then i had a tummy ache too and just felt so tired.
so i tried to go to sleep but i was so aware of the 'empty' feeling in my chest, i couldn't feel my heart beating, and then the thoughts came of well it's given up, i'll have another fit from low BP, or my body will just stop working during the night and i'll die. everytime i got near sleeping i kinda woke back up ages, but my heart didn't beat any fasterrer. i hd to go nd get mum eventually and see stayed with me till i was asleep i think.
i just get so worried that my heart has been shocked so much over these 2 years that it will give up and has been scared into submission as i ignored its signals originally.
First Anxiety...then panic attacks...now GAD and depression...now working on a better future!
i had a rubbish night last night the worst in ages to be honest.
i felt ill during lost and so went to bed, i was just aware that my chest felt 'empty' if that makes any sense? then i had a tummy ache too and just felt so tired.
so i tried to go to sleep but i was so aware of the 'empty' feeling in my chest, i couldn't feel my heart beating, and then the thoughts came of well it's given up, i'll have another fit from low BP, or my body will just stop working during the night and i'll die. everytime i got near sleeping i kinda woke back up ages, but my heart didn't beat any fasterrer. i hd to go nd get mum eventually and see stayed with me till i was asleep i think.
i just get so worried that my heart has been shocked so much over these 2 years that it will give up and has been scared into submission as i ignored its signals originally.
First Anxiety...then panic attacks...now GAD and depression...now working on a better future!